My Faith Journey (3rd Trimester-Final Examination)

Did I truly trust God, the God I had claimed to know and love all my life? And if so, would I follow Him even into the darkest, most painful valley?

By His grace, I have followed.  By my faith, miracles happen! And truly God has given me eyes that see Him in the most unexpected ways. The only thing that will keep u going is your FAITH~

FAITH SEEING AS GOD SEES.. – Ptra. Mitch Gustilo, Fueled by Faith Series

Faith does not operate in the realm of the possible. There is no glory for God in that which is humanly possible. Faith begins where man’s power ends. I have experienced the power of such faith in my life.

One of the struggles I was facing when I started to enter college was finances; It so heavy for our parents to provide our tuition fees. Especially two of us are studying in a expensive computer college school.

My brother is a graduating student (I mean, 1 tri to go!) So I have to make a savings for my own payment. Especially, when you see your parents are working hard just to give you an education for your future. I’m really willing to help them when I started to realize how expensive our tuition fee is.

I think it’ll be a big help for them if I make a savings for my finals and also if I would be thrifty whenever they give me an allowance. And because of that routine every examination (ipon dito, ipon don, tipid dito tipid don), it grew me a lot. But, still my parents are the one who provides my monthly payment in school. I just help them with my very best and with my very willing soul by giving some of my savings in order to add in my examination fee. Sometimes, I was thinking to be a self-supporting student. Look for a part time jobs, in order to pay off my tuition fees and living expenses.

Final exam is heading off.. My balance in school is still bigger. In my mind, I want to provide my final exam on my own because I don’t wan’t my parents to be so stressed. Me and my brother, we’re both studying at expensive school, so I have to take an action for my exam. So past few days, I suffered physically. My health condition worsened; every time I’m going to sleep, it feels like my intestine, my liver, my respiratory system are jumping around my bed. Sounds weird right? because of stress and lack of sleep. I still remember several times when I cried out to God to let me sleep for 3 days because the pain was so unbearable. Every time I was thinking for my final exam, I always asks myself, “Bakit ganto? Masipag naman ako mag-aral. Yung ibang hindi naman ganoonan kasipagan, pero fully paid agad. Eh ako?” Am I starting to doubt? But when all those questions starting to pop in my mind, I started to read Owner’s Manual. And pray! Asking God to take away all those doubts, all those fears and worries. And praying that may the spirit of fear leave me that moment.

Weeks had passed.. Finals is coming..

Habang palapit na ng palapit yung araw, ang hirap na iwasan yung pressure. Pero instead of spearheaded of worries, I JUST PUT MY TRUST ON THE LORD. This is what I always says, every time I have trouble in AMA or everytime I have concerns in AMA > “Eh, si Lord is by my side!  Nilagay ako ni Lord sa school na to! I’m 101% sure na hinding hindi Niya ko papabayan. Hindi pababayaan in terms of people around me, in terms of environment there, in terms of grades, and most of all in terms of financial (as we all know, tuition fee in AMA is so expensive KAYA: PARA SA MGA NAGAARAL SA AMA, MAG-ARAL KAYO NG MABUTI. DAHIL ANG MAHAL MAHAL NG TUITION FEE SA AMA! HINDI NAGTATAE ANG MGA MAGULANG NATIN. BLESSED TAYO DAHIL PINAGARAL TAYO NG MGA MAGULANG NATIN SA MAHAL NA UNIBERSIDAD). GOD IS WITH ME. Selah.

When I got home, I told mom and dad that the deadline for the finals was the wednesday because I don’t want to be hassle to fix my clearance and my RSA, and I found out that we didn’t have any money to pay for it yet. Normally, I’d feel frustrated, irritated, pressure, cranky and nervous all at the same time, but I was surprised I wasn’t. It was amazing. I just felt so much peace, so much hope, and so much assurance that God was gonna provide for me. That I was gonna be able to take exam.

*****

It’s not a faith unless you made a bold declaration. – Ptra. Mitch Gustilo, Fueled by Faith Series

God has already been providing in miraculous ways for me to complete my studies. Despite many trails, God has provided for all my needs and tuition fees over the 9 months. And now I am moving forward on the next level. Two steps to go. I can now see the finish line, and I am fervently praying to graduate on time with LAUDE~

Neither my desperate needs nor higher grades made any difference. However, my faith did not waver. I reasoned to myself that God was testing me so that my faith could be strengthened in the midst of trials. Just like Job says, “ ‘But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold’ ” (Job 23:10).*

Job! What kind of worse experience was he going through that led him to make such an affirmation? Job was a God-fearing follower; he obeyed God and trusted Him.

Despite all these terrible and heartbreaking trials, Job still believed in the Lord, for God was the object of Job’s faith. Our belief affects our attitude and our reaction. What do I mean? Look at the attitude and reaction Job had while facing all these problems. Job’s faith, trust, and belief were all rooted firmly in God. Job would have been so hopeless if his faith was based on everything he possessed. That was not the case.

His faith was in God, and God never disappears. So, when everything was lost, Job had one assurance that can never be lost and he exclaimed, “My Redeemer lives.” In that Living God, Job trusted, so he survived every crisis. He did not lose hope because he based his faith in the Lord God was the object of his faith.

*****

God provides it all the way

Going back to my own story, despite of my trials and struggles, I kept praying to God and believing in Him. I was praying for God to open a way for me to take final exam if it was really His will. I also prayed that He would help me pay off all my expenses, tuition fees, and provide me a place to stay.

Finally, a while ago, GOD PROVIDES! Imagine, my final examination starts today (April 16, 2015) and this is the day I also got my permit. GOD REALLY STRETCHES MY FAITH IN FINANCES *My Nga-nga Moment!* Slap me? Am I dreaming? I keep telling my 2 classmates “NA TALAGA BANG MAGEEXAM NA KO? TOTOO NA BA TO? KAKAPRAY KO LANG NG KAKAPRAY, NGAYONG MAKAKAEXAM NA KO? DAHIL SA MGA BIBIG NA KAKAPRAY NA KAKAPRAY AT NADINIG NI LORD?”

In the end, I was able to take my exam.

Here it is :

11115921_1052848121395193_1885962607_n

Tendeden! I’m excited for my exam (for the very first time) hahaha, because I know I went through ups and downs before getting this permit. Actually, every exam, I am very early to buy a green booklet (one week before the exam) even though I’m still not paid yet. Because, I always tell to my mom that- “Ma, ito yung faith ko. BY FAITH. Alam ko kasing makakaexam ako kaya nabili agad ako ng green booklet. Si laging by faith ako ♥” hehehe.

God is so amazing and great. *AKO ANG SAKSI*

It was all God’s doing. I always reminded myself that “we live not by sight, but by faith.” Though I did not have enough money to study. I believed God and His promises in the Bible. “ALAM KONG SASAGIPIN AT SASAGIPIN AT SASAGIPIN NIYA PA KONG MULI, JUST LIKE WHAT I’VE SAID, GOD PLACE ME IN THAT CAMPUS (AMA) IMPOSIBLENG PABAYAAN NIYA KO”. My faith was in God. I believed His Word, “ ‘You have made the heavens and the earth by your great power . . . nothing is too hard for you’ ” (Jer. 32:17). I know that everything on earth belongs to the Lord, and if it’s His will and keep on desiring, then He will hear my prayer just like 1 John 5:14 says, “This is the confidence which we have before Him, that, if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us” (NASB).

We receive Jesus and His blessings only by faith. – Ptra. Mitch Gustilo, Fueled by Faith Series

Whatever situation you are in, the word of the Lord is to put your faith in Him. Listen and focus to His words no matter how loud and seemingly true the other voice is.

tumblr_nfft4ilBk41s8fg03o1_500

“Faith is to believe what we do not see, and the reward of faith is to see what we believe.” – St. Augustine

The important lessons I learned from my walk with God, my faith journey include: to trust and have faith in Him, believe in His Word, and claim His promises because our God loves us so much that He will always carry us through. T

here might be times when we pray and pray and nothing happens. We just have to wait patiently. God stretches our faith. We might have lost faith in God because of various situations. However, we must never lose heart, never give up hope. Always trust in God.

Advertisements

Hello College!

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Isaiah 41:10 ESV)

Just began one of the biggest chapters of my life, so I might as well keep a record of it, starting today. My 1st day in college life.

My eyes darted from each passing stony face. My heart pounded. Butterflies infiltrated my stomach. It felt like the first day of high school all over again. Except this time, I was completely on my own. (Iba nga daw ang college sa high school, So what to expect?)

First day at college is the most stressful day of their lives because they don’t know what to expect or they just don’t want to go through an embarrassing situation (based on observation a while ago), but for me it was the most exciting day of my life. 50% Excited and 50% Not yet ready. First, I met new people who I shared my interests with. Second it was a whole new experience & new knowledge for me in which success made on me, and third it was the first day that I started studying something that I really liked. The goal of a college student is not to merely survive; it is to thrive: academically, socially, and otherwise. Sir. Yolito says “This ain’t high school anymore. This is not a competition neither, no one can dictate on what you have to do. You have your freedom here at AMA.” Going to college automatically changes my perspective of life. New opportunities, new environment, new friends/classmates, new experiences, learn new things and a whole new world opens up before you. This is the time to make mistakes and learn as you step towards your future to become someone in life, but it all begins from that first day:

Preparing for monday:

Image

ImageImage

I miss those composition notebooks that’s why I took those pictures. then I finally bought a Cute Kitty Cat Notebook Binder + Green Ballpens = Preparing for college. (Naninibago pa talaga ko sa papamili) It tooks a lot of time to choose my binder then, finally found a good one. When I’m about to prepare my bag, my kuya is laughing at me, because I have scotch tapes, scissors, color pencils, ruler, pentel, and a lot of ballpens. He was just teasing me, Ano high school? Ano elementary? Eh Girl scout to eh!

**************

A lot of adjustment is setting up..

Sandata bago sumugod sa school:

Image

My Schedule: (Thank you, Lord for this schedule. I have a whole time on church every saturday)

Image

On the way to school. First day of school – medyo late (di naman super) hehe. Enebenemenyeeeen! Well, I realize that heading to college gives us a sense of responsibility as well as freedom. Ikaw mamimili. gigising ka ba ng maaga o hindi?

**************

Image

Promise 5 minutes na lang gigising na ako. teka 10 minutes na lang talaga promith. Ang hirap gumising sa college, Masasanay din ito!

Image

First the room was like a solemn spring.  I bet everyone was so nervous on our first day at college. But, I met lots of people who were as excited as me for their first day at college. I really enjoyed that day because everybody I talked to were people who were going to study CS/IT with me, so we shared the same interest. My new friends and I talked a lot that day about the first things that crossed our minds, and then we exchanged our facebook, instagram and twitter. Thanks to AMAstudents-wifi. In my case I tried to look for the people who where completely interested with this course, and I think I overdid. I stand up on my sit and shake each other’s hands to all of them, I also introduce myself and ask all of their name. I thought I was on Campus Youth of Destiny. I really enjoyed to know them, to meet them and to be part of CA Section.

**************

Image

 **************

They’re checkin’ out our Certificate of Registration + write your name, section, course on a 1/8 sheet of paper:

Image

**************

(8:00-9:00am – College Algebra) Mr. Yolito Lucenio is about to ask us one-by-one.

What are your expectations? & Why did you chose AMA? (But I wasn’t called).

They also ask who are the honor students, and scholars. (Sir, here sir!)

(9:00-10:00am – Trigo) Mr. Anthony Sibayan our Math teacher. He leaves us a saying:

Image

He call us one-by one, and introduce ourselves in front of the class. Sir Sibayan says, ‘tell me about yourself. your name. strength & weaknesses. expectation with this subject. why do you prefer this course. & 4 years from now, what are your plans? & anything you can add on?

ME: Sheim Jarra Palmes. Taking up BS Computer Science . Uhmm, my strength is logic while my weakness is arithmetic. Pinili ko tong course na ito, because I know I’m born for this! 4 years from now, I’m one of the best web developer or web designer (it’s either) in the Philippines. (But, when I already told that I realize my vision was too small, let’s make it bigger – WHOLE NATION na lang pala. Hahahaha! too late to tell)

“And it shall come to pass afterward, that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh; your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions.” (Joel 2:28 ESV)

Mangarap ka ineng/totoy!

For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. (Habakkuk 2:3 ESV)

Let it happen! & Let’s wait for the right time!

Had a great time and great lunch with them:

Image

Image

That’s it. Thanks for those who message me. & for those who do a novel message for me hahaha! Good luck & God bless by my friends. You’re too many to mention. Thanks my brothaa (Jomar Palmes) for cooking a carbonara for my breakfast.

 Image