Building Your Life

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The life that you are living now is like building a house. How you build your life will determine your destiny, not just for this life on earth but also for eternity. You must develop a solid foundation in your life or all the other things in your life won’t hold up. When it comes to building your life, the foundation is the basis of everything that is to come. So how do you develop a solid foundation? Paul points out in 1 Corinthians 3:11 that your foundation is Christ. This foundation is firm and strong. You can rely on it and it will never give way. If you build a life on Christ, you live in total dependence on Christ and His Word. Just as a house rests on a firm foundation, your life must rest on Christ in order to stand the tests of time. By building your life on Him, you will stand safe and sure!” – Dr. John Barton

If It’s For The Lord, Walang Sayang!

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So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless. (1 Corinthians 15:58, NLT)

When the things you do are sincerely in the name of The Lord, you can rest assured your labor is not in vain. There is no wasted effort if it’s for the Lord. He knows your heart and He knows all that you’re going through (Luke 16:15) when it’s right and when it’s wrong. We may labor and sacrifice a lot in different things, but if it was not built up for the Lord Himself, it counts for nothing. It doesn’t matter what others say about you or about the things you strive to do for God. Go lang ng go, if it’s for the Lord. It counts for nothing, if it was not really for the Lord. It only matters what He thinks. It’s about what you do and who you are in the eyes of the Lord not in men.

Whatever we do, if the Lord is not with us, if the Lord is not doing it with us, Solomon says, it is then meaningless. Wherever we go, if the Lord goes not with us, it is then meaningless. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul.
(Matthew 16:26)

Be the kind of a person who doesn’t just want to do well to please or compete with others, but because he/she has given himself/herself fully to the work of the Lord, and he/she desires to please Him, to glorify Him and give Him honor. Because when you do, your labor is NOT in vain. Let God be your inspiration whatever you do. You’re doing this for one reason; FOR HIM ALONE!
 
WAG KANG MAPAPAGOD. IF IT’S FOR THE LORD, WALANG SAYANG!

Weekly Post: Chapter 3 (The lost and found)

WEEKLY POST(6)The story of my life has many chapters. One bad chapter doesn’t mean it’s the end of the book.

Sa dami dami dami dami dami dami ng tao dito sa mundo paano ko mahahanap ang nawawala kong wallet? Fresh pain a while ago. I have that feeling na maraming importanteng bagay doon para sa akin. Memories and remembrance? Yung gospel and invitation na unang invite sa akin. Yung id’s, yung tickets. syempre yung allowance. Lahat lahat pati yung wallet na mahal :\, I too much value the things I have and the things that are given to me that’s why it cause me pain. Sunday morning when I lost my wallet. I dunno’ where I misplace it. All I know, that wallet is very important to me. Umaasa akong maibabalik siya. Til’ now, the pain. It won’t go away, today. But the reality too won’t change. It is a decision for me to completely forget what happened and convince myself that it never come back anymore. But I pray, kung sino man may hawak nung wallet na iyon. Lord, touch his/her heart. So I will wake up in the morning bearing the pain of reality because I am in the road of accepting. Wallet lang yun, hindi ko pagpapalit ang gladness ko.

The truth is, I will not blog about this, wallet thinggy-u know. I’m physically tired pero magalak ang aking puso sa pagkapanalo nitong intams. 3 days intrams was a great experience for me. First time ko mag-intrams sa AMA. And I received 3 champions (Table tennis – Single [Women] & Mixed Doubles, Badminton -Single[Women]) All glory belongs to God! One thing I realized, nanalo nga ako. But after all this thing, Inside my heart, may lungkot pa din. This coming saturday, may event sa church. Na dapat nakapaginvite ako instead of playing around, hitting that shuttlecock. Waking up early, doing stretching and waiting for the game. I feel guilt. I feel unsatisfied. I feel sad. Because I feel right now, that it was a wrong way. But, thanks be to God, for His mercy and grace. For He is a forgiving God!

Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, Whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity, And in whose spirit there is no deceit. (Psalms 32:1-2, NIV)

Sa kabila ng lahat ng ito, saya sa pagkapanalo at lungkot sa biglang pagkawala, Still, PRAISE GOD! Maybe now, I’ll start another chapter. Move on. I am seeking always to have a start because I want to forget things I’ve done in a wrong way. But it is supposed to be like that? Forgetting what is behind and run like you had never carried faults in your life?

Do we really need to forget? Because at some point, sometimes, I see sweetness in pain. I see a charm in tears that have fallen. Looking back, thou’ it was a mess and unattractive, it is the reason I appreciate where I am and what I have today.

Mistakes, pains, and hardships are the ones we  mostly want to forget. But it is all the ones that  make us to keep going. We  keep trying harder, we keep fighting, we keep running, and we keep making things in proper order to rebuild things rightly. It  helps us to create our trace in this world. So that at the end of our lives we can say to ourselves, “My Life isn’t lifeless at all!” 

At the  end of  the  day I realize it is not about everything that happened. It is about the time I am always looking at. I am still that girl who thinks that time is always running out. I still put comfort in fast-paced and never want to see things slowly or in its regularity. Still, every time I fell to the ground, & every time I fail, still God’s mercy remains. Failure and success are both the possible endings of every season in my life.

In failure, I truly learn my weaknesses and things I cannot do next time. In success, I learn my strengths, the things I can and qualities I have that I can use again. And in both, I experience the mercy, grace and love of God. It is like learning the advantages and disadvantages of things around me.

What matters for me is the journey and not the ending. Endings are just bonus where I can say “Yeheyyyy! Finally, tapos na.” or “Wow! It is awesome! I want to do it again!” And in every journey I am in naman there’s only one thing that is always being point up. It is GOD IS IN ME, GOD IS WITH ME & GOD IS FOR ME and there’s always a next chapter with Him. I was lost for a week but now I am found again. More grace more love.

When do I ever learn? I am always like this and makes me forget to enjoy things  at a time. I am greedy to have it all at once not realizing that one present a day is equal to unceasing happiness than getting and unwrapping the gifts at  one once and not having anything tomorrow. 

I know that I have to go back. I do not know where to find what I am losing because I don’t also know what specifically I have lost. But if there’s one thing I am sure of right now, it is the want to write the way I used to. To find the softness again. To go back.

Balik laban!

Life is a battle and a race. A battle with God’s enemy and a race where winner does not mean you are the fastest but the strongest and the one who really perseveres. Because the race I am talking about is not just an ordinary one, it is a race where  you are risking it all for your faith.

Right now, I feel better. I find comfort because of- JESUS ♥

My Prayer:

Remember your word to your servant, in which you have made me hope. This is my comfort in my affliction, that your promise gives me life. The insolent utterly deride me, but I do not turn away from your law. (Psalms 118:49-51, ESV)

I will not give up. Because You trust me in this. You want me in this. Paul found joy in suffering, I should have too. Because we both have You. In this moment where I gave up myself planning for my future, I can only say Your Name and nothing more. Lord, your grace is sufficient in my weakness.

Psalm 119:105

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You might be making decisions about your job, school, family/home, self or relationships, but you don’t have to make those decisions on your own. God is interested in every detail of your life, and He’s provided direction and guidance in His Word. God will lead you in a right path.

When life seems dark, or when you aren’t sure about which choice to make, turn on the light of God’s Word so you can see clearly what to do. As you meditate on His Word and confess His promises over your life, it chisels away the walls of doubt, fear and uncertainty that would try to block you or hold you back.

Remember, you can always trust God because He is good and He has plans to prosper and bless you when you follow His Word. The Bible tells us that the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn which shines brighter and brighter. That means His truth will guide and direct your heart in the direction of peace, blessing and increase in every area of your life!

One step, forward. (Considering I don’t fail. But I won’t stop. I will dream high.)

Heading off to college is both an exciting and challenging experience. First, exciting because you will have new school to go, new classmates to meet and new environment. Second, challenging because in College you will make many decisions that can bring you down or bring you up to success. There’s a lot of trial and error to experience. and definitely, a lot of temptation also. But of course, I know my identity in Christ. Why should I be afraid of? It’s heartbreaking to say farewell to high school life but I know as I close this chapter of my life, I will open another one. When I graduated high school level, the first question poped in my mind was “What’s school will I enroll to? & What course is really for me? in other word, What is God’s plan for me?”

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11, NIV)

The pressure is setting in..

The University of the Philippines College Admission Test (UPCAT) is one of the most awaited exams a high school student would take. It brings about a certain anticipation coupled with anxiety. It is, after all, the first and usually the biggest entrance test graduating students take. All the other entrance exams to other universities come after it. When you say intelligent people, first university will come to your mind, is UP. Many students are dreaming for it. It’s because everyone knows that in our future when we’re applying for jobs, school will be one of the most basis for acceptance. And UP is the best school, as others say. All my life, I’ve dreamed of studying at the University of the Philippines. I’ve yearned to become a scholar ng bayan for about a years now. I was so positive that I’ll get to study there one day; hence, my parents didn’t allow me to take entrance exam at UP for several reason, then I have no choice but to obey them, accept the fact that I’m not for UP & just look for other university out there. I tried to convinced them but eventually, it turned out to be a hopeless case, I didn’t even hear ‘Yes, You can take UPCAT’

So I look for other University. I planned to be an Engineer. Field of Electronics and Communication. I don’t know why I really like this course, I’m really determined to be an engineer in the future. I’m really confused with this. Since I was kinder, Since I steped in school, I dreamed to be TV Host/Radio Host/News Caster/News Reporter/VJ/ anything that are related to Mass Communication Major in Broadcasting. That’s my passion &- at the same time, I know that I’m good in talking and talking and talking, that’s why. hehehe, If you know me then you don’t need to ask me anymore why. Fourth year high school, everything has changed. I don’t know why. God really put me on the course were I’m not really good at; I’m not passionate, I have no interest, in other word, I don’t like’em. Related in Math. Like wuuuut? Why engineer? So, I have no choice, I need to become a Math lover. Math wizard? lol, Fourth year, I tried to listen to our teacher, I do also my assignments, I do recite, I do my seatworks. I’m trying to understand those <errrrrr>. I can’t explain. I don’t like trigonometry, ever! I was just thinking that time; ” Pag ba nag-trabaho na ako susukatin ko pa ba yung angle angle ng bawat gagawin ko ” Math really driving me crazy. I totally hate math when I started to saw letters? x+y. I dunno know, I love math when I was elementary, I really like to join math quiz bee’s, anything related to math but 1st year to 4th year High school, I have no interest to listen to our math teacher anymore. I am too shy to say this but honestly, I don’t understand anything about Algebra, Geometry and Trigonometry that were discussed by our teachers. hehehe, Then, Ok Laugh. I know in myself that I tried hard.

I prefer BS Electronics Communication Engineering at Technological University of the Philippines-Taguig. that was January 15, 2014 (first batch) when I take an entrance exam So here it is, I was being positive to pass the exam. I claimed, I declared, and I prayed harder. If this Is really God’s will for me then I will be part of this institution but unfortunately, I didn’t pass 😦 I failed. When, TUP already sent a letter in our house, I’m still sleeping that time and I heard my parents was talking about that I didn’t pass the exam, they wake me up and told me I didn’t make it. But I thought everything was a Joke. They’re just kiddin’ me, I know that. So, before I woke up, I pray first. I was declaring that I pass TUP-exam but suddenly, Sheim Jarra Blanco Palmes, You FAILED! (Take note: It’s capital F-A-I-L-E-D!) It hurts. that was the feeling when I read the TUP- letter. Ouch! Well, I didn’t have to be shocked. I didn’t answer all the parts of exam, I leave 30 items on Test G, and aside from that I didn’t ate my breakfast before I took the exam so my brain is hanging upside down while taking exam, Like what is this? ‘Sequence, napakabagal mag-isip. tsk’ . As if my expectations haven’t been deflated enough, I failed miserably in math for sure, as always. My math ability disappoints me. then, I know I’m just an average student since I was born to study; surely, the public school produces great, smart and intelligent student. who am I compared to those students, while me studied in private school ever since. Just like what other says, There are more intelligent students in public schools while me grew up in private school, I have nothing to blow. I really felt down. But I have to accept it. On that day, I easily get up, and look for other university again. As I said to myself, ‘I have to rise up and not to stick with this thing. I don’t have to be affected all over. Why should I? eh, I am being so loved by my great Daddy God, I was able to find strength to at least stop disappointing myself after those bad result. I don’t have to be sad all day, all night, because I know I am destined for bigger dreams and bigger goals in life, all I have to do is to embrace it and let it happen! My future is secured in His hands. I just have to trust Him.

My classmates told me that there are free cheng eng teng scholarship exams on SPCBA so, I grab it. 

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I’ve got 50% discount. I passed. I know God won’t let me down.

Of course, I have to look for other school again. SPCBA is just my option.

The day I take PUPCET.

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I take PUPCET at Sta.Rosa branch even though there is a San Pedro branch here. I prefer Sta. Rosa the reason is there is no Electronics Communication Engineering at San Pedro so I decided to go for Sta. Rosa. Then for a few weeks I settled my requirements for PUPCET. My mama paid 525pesos on land bank, and I take a 2×2 picture, before the day of my Entrance Exam. I was able to fix that all. When it’s all done. I was so very excited, I told myself that this time I need to pass this. I am very determined & I am really optimistic that time. I was full of positive thoughts on my mind I know that I can do this and I am highly favor by my Almighty God in Heaven but deep inside of course, I can’t prevent, I am a lil’bit frightened. I was just wondering If I didn’t pass this then, I know my parents will be disappointed to me. They spend money for me, for my entrance exams, then I just failed it all. First TUP then now PUP even though I pass SPCBA. It’s just an option in case I didn’t pass all the entrance exams I took. Aside from that It’s just my classmates who persuades me to take cheng eng teng scholarship exam. (wala namang mawawala) Let’s try SPCBA, It’s free and we can get a scholarship so I was just like ‘ Tara! Tara! Ok. Back to PUPCET hehe The day came. March 30 (2nd Shift) I was claiming that time to pass the exam. After 2 hours travellin’ I was at Mcdonald near Puregold Tagapo. I’m too early to go at PUP Sta. Rosa yet, I have to wait 3 hours. My mama told me that I have to eat breakfast first to prevent my brain hanging upside down (lol) so, I can answer my exam well. (I don’t want my TUP-experience to happen again, no breakfast then, this time I have to eat a lot) After 2 and a half hours, well, here I come PUP! There was a fresh air there but when I already come inside like woooooah ‘Sobrang init, anggulo ng linya, ang daming tao at damang-dama ko na ang feeling sa public’ Sorry po for being maarte hehehe, that’s my first time to encounter like that. Pero inside my heart, I want this one. I want this campus. Campus where I am going to be developed & campus where I am going to conquer for Jesus! It’s challenging & I’m really ready to get out of my boat, to stand out my comfort zone. & I’m ready to face those struggles that I will encounter everyday of my college life, for sure watatatatata. I was so exhausted even I’m not still in the room. ‘Am I having an audition for Pinoy Big Brother?’. I’m ready to take the exam. There are two proctors there the other one was really like a monster; Very strict. I was so scared to be embarassed that time so, behave sheimy. Don’t talk too much. & do the best you can aja! While taking the exam, the girl that sent from above is about to checked our requirements at some later time, again I failed. ‘Punit ang paper ko I thought I have to cut it because there’s a dotted lines there but that’s just an “I thought” huhuhu  Thank God, she just whisper to me that ‘next time’..  *sigh* And yes! she didn’t announced it in the whole class. I’m safe. Next time, double read the instructions, sheimy! “Ako lang yung nakahating papel” ='( I realized that I really don’t check the instruction clearly or maybe listened. My mama already told me not to cut it in half because there’s no instruction there to cut the e-permit but suddenly I didn’t followed and still I cut it in a half and followed the dotted lines. Always failed (⌣̩̩́_⌣̩̩̀)   then after taking the exam my name is special mention, like woooah this is so embarassing! Palmes, you have to complete the right requirements on or before April 02. My 2×2 picture size is just 1.5×1.5 picture size. So then, my mama spend money again. That time we went in rush to Sta.Rosa Bayan to re-scan it in 2×2 picture size and back to PUP again. We have to fall in line again & again. Super haba! We have waited for one and a half hours. After a long journey. I failed. Sad to say, I didn’t pass the PUPCET. April 29, I’m ready to check the result on PUP.edu website, (even though I am already enrolled in AMA Computer College Biñan) Yesterday, I silently prayed and hoped that I got to see my name as one of the passers. but yeah, I didn’t see my name. My heart was crushed. Okay. It made me sad, but I think I really deserved it since I didn’t study.  My papa always reminds me every now and then to study harder. He told me that How can I pass those exams If I don’t have an interest to study and learn more. He bought me a lot of books, but I didn’t open those expensive books ever since. I thought I can pass it even if I didn’t review. I was so confident with my stock knowledge. but unfortunately, that’s not enough!

One thing a realized : FAITH WITHOUT ACTION IS DEATH

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Yes, I know this! that Faith without action is death. but sometimes, We forget what’s the real essence of this when we’re about to that situation. Do something and Let it happen! I have to accept because I know It’s really my fault, no other than. I didn’t study well. And I also have a doubt in myself to pass those entrance exams. I was so self-pity which is not good. But then again, I know that God has a better plan for me. I kind of got over it as the time passed by. The Lord has His ways. I know He knows what the best for me.

So, eventually, I was enrolled last week (April 22 ) to AMA Computer College taking BS Computer Science. I took the AMA-entrance exam and yeah, I passed. Still, I have a lil’bit bitterness with those entrance exams I failed. If I know that I will not pass it and still I  fall with this campus, I wish that I didn’t take those exams in other universities to not feel this disappointments. But then, when I read my bible, it uplift my soul and spirit. It reminds me that ” THERE’S ALWAYS BE A PURPOSE FOR EVERYTHING” 

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And another blessing, I got a political scholarship on Munsipyo from our Vice Mayor – Hon. Rafael P. Campos. 50% discount until I graduate to college but there’s also a maintaining grade. I thank God for this. He never failed to bless and to amaze me and I know he will never ever fail. This scholarship is such a big help for my family.

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Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand. (Psalms 37:24, NLT)

Anyway, here is the pencil I used for my TUP-entrance exam and PUPCET. After posting this picture on VSCO, I told this to my mama and papa: “Pakiramdam ko po talaga hindi ako matalino =(” WARNING: Don’t ever tell it to yourself – (Wag gayahin!) Hehehe. We are all intelligent because we are the children of God. Tuloy ang buhay! hehehe. I am really too shy to share this entrance exams experiences.  I don’t want this to share on facebook or to other social networks. After all this failures? Why do I have to?  Just to share my failures to other people and to underestimate me? but definitely, no.. that’s not the point. Lately, I was about to share this to my other friends. I realized that there’s nothing to be ashamed of. Because of this experience, I learned a lot. Getting stronger now and then, and being more determined to study. Mas lalong nangarap! Dream High. 

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Now I know what’s really my purpose. I know what’s really am I for. After praying it for almost 1 and a half year, Always telling Him, ‘Not my will but, Father, Let your will be done’ Finally, God already put me there& I know I was born for this: [since grade 2, I am very interested to this stuff without tutoring me, (Glory to God) though, it’s basic but I have a lil’bit knowledge. & I can’t imagine that on my very young age, I am really passionate to do this thing and at the same time, still learning. I didn’t expect to be on this course, Honestly, I don’t like to take Computer-related courses because my kuya is already an IT. And at the same time, Engineering to Computer Science? huh? It’s like Hardware to Software? Well, I am going to embrace this, because I know this is God’s will for me.) I AM BORN TO BE..

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Keep Dreaming! Keep Believing! Never Stop!