19 things I’ve learned in 19 years

Since I turned 19, I want to share some of my learning throughout my year. I have learned more than these 19 lessons in my 19 years on earth. But I could only sum up everything into these 19. Take time to read this, I tried to make it shorter.

  1. Everything happens for a reason.

Everything that happens in this world happens at the time God chooses. (Ecclesiastes 3:1, GNT)

Madaming ganap at pangyayari simula ng naging ganap na dalaga na ako. Yung saya at lungkot andiyan na yan e. Nasasayo na lang kung ano pipiliin mo. One thing is all I know, “Everything has a purpose according to God’s plan”. May rason yan! Hindi sa lahat ng pagkakataon aayon sa mga gusto mo ang lahat ng mga nangyayari sa buhay mo.  Hindi palaging nasa taas ka, hindi rin palaging nasa baba ka. Hindi parating okay lang lahat. But then, it’s always a matter of CHOICE.

I must confess, I undergo to one of the painful decision in my life when I stepped on being 18. I must admit, those were aching and tough moments. Natagalan din akong tanggapin ang mga bagay-bagay non. I didn’t see it coming, if I knew I should’ve prepared for it. Sometimes, it’s hard to accept the things you didn’t expect to happen. It’s one of the hardest part in the healing process; ACCEPTANCE. Maraming oras na napatanong ako ng “Why did this happen to me?” o “Bakit ko pa kailangan daanan to?” Ang daming tanong sa isip ko na hindi masagot-sagot. But, It always lead me to 4 words “Everything happens for a reason”. And I believe, God has better plans for me. And it keeps me going! There are better times for that ‘thing’ to happen. Trust GOD, good or bad? It’s a lesson and the trip happened for a reason.

  1. Step outside of my comfort zone.

I will lead the blind along an unfamiliar way; I will guide them down paths they have never traveled. I will turn the darkness in front of them into light, and level out the rough ground. This is what I will do for them. I will not abandon them. (Isaiah 42:16, NET Bible)

Lately, I have been challenging myself to step outside of my comfort zone. Amazing things have happened. I’m one of a kind of person that is driven by fear of failure. Kaya, sometimes I always make sure na magiging successful ang result. Takot gawin to, takot gawin yan. Baka di ko magawa, baka mag-fail lang, nahihiya ako, di ko rin kaya yan, di ako magaling sa ganyan.

Lemme’ share you something… Mahiyain po ako in front of many crowds, hindi ko kayang magsalita sa harap dahil feeling ko wala kong masasabi parati or feeling ko di naman ako magaling magsalita. (I’m sure walang maniniwala but for those people who really knows me. Who knew me behind the preparation of every speech, I’m sure you know what I mean.) Sobrang kabado po talaga ako. Pag napipili po ko magsalita sa harap madalas tumatanggi yung bibig ko pero gusto naman talaga ng heart ko. It just “it takes a lot of courage for me to speak in front of many people”. Another thing, hindi ko din kaya mapag-isa. Hindi ko kaya kumaen alone. Hindi ko kaya bumili ng something ng magisa. Kahit saan ako pumunta nagpapasama pa ako noon.  Isa talaga to sa naging achievement para sakin, yung maovercome ko na ang di magpasama parati. Babaw ba? Hehe.

Sabi nga ni Max DePree, “We cannot become what we want to be by remaining what we are.”

When I started to step outside my comfort zone many new oppurtinities came. I discover new abilities and strengths I thought I never had. Pag hindi mo talaga triny yung mga bagay na uncomfortable ka at paulit-ulit ka lang dun sa mga bagay na master mo na, you won’t grow. Try mo muna kasi. Instead of saying I can’t, say ‘I can.’. Get out of the box. Try new things. New foods, new adventures, new skills. Make it new everyday! God makes all things new. (Revelation 21:5)

If you just stay there and sit, you will gain nothing, apart from more fear of the unknown and more worries of all the things you don’t have or have never done.

  1. Always give my best shot.

Whatever you do, do well. For when you go to the grave, there will be no work or planning or knowledge or wisdom. (Ecclesiastes 9:10, NLT)

Madalas ko tong sabihin sa sarili ko simula ng tumungtong ako sa third-year level ngayong college. Di naman talaga maitatanggi na may mga mahihirap na subjects. Meron akong subject last semester ang hirap niya po talaga mapapa-HUHU ka.  Matinding dasalan tuwing exam, board exam nga daw ika-nila. (Hi comscie’s, you know what I mean) Kailangan mong mag exert ng maraming effort para maabot ang goal mo. Ilang kape sa isang araw ang kailangan mo para lang magising ka sabay habang nainom ng kape sisigaw ka pa ng “laban lang! wooh” hahaha, nakakatawa man pero, ginagawa ko to. Try niyo din effective po.

Bata pa lang ako tinatak ko na at binaon ko na sa aking puso’t isipan na “gagawin mo na lang din yung isang bagay, bigay mo na yung pinakabest mo. Mag-aaral ka na lang din naman, galingan mo na, make it on top!” It was my motivation every now and then.

I remember one of the meeting in digisciples. Ate Zy Bambico told us ‘Kung ano yung role mo at kung saan ka nilagay ni Lord, dapat ikaw yung pinakamagaling doon. Kung floor director ka, dapat ikaw yung pinakamagaling na floor director. Kung designer ka, dapat ikaw yung pinakamagaling na designer.’

Put all your effort into everything you do. If you’re okay with putting in half the effort, you better be okay with half the results. If you want the best then give your best shot. Ayos ba yon? Go girl!

  1. Hard work pays off!

With all this going for us, my dear, dear friends, stand your ground. And don’t hold back. Throw yourselves into the work of the Master, confident that nothing you do for Him is a waste of time or effort. (1 Corinthians 15:58, MSG)

Every semester, “worth it! talaga”. Everytime I see my name on dean’s lister, I always says ‘hard work pays off!’. Di sayang lahat ng effort basta you give all credit to GOD. Malinaw sayo kung bakit mo pa kailangan laanan ng oras at panahon ang isang bagay. Everything is to give glory to our God. Mapa-saang aspeto man yan. Ang mga challenges andyan na yan e, sometimes it won’t be fun trying to get there, sometimes you will feel the tiredness and you’ll want to give up. But, if you keep going on, in the end, it’s all worth it. Goals are attainable if you put in the effort to achieve them.

You don’t remember the struggle or pain to get there, you remember how awesome it feels once you succeed and you already get there. You are more than conquerors, kaya tapusin mo na hanggang dulo. Ngayon pa ba?

  1. Sing it out.

A Psalm. O sing to the LORD a new song, For He has done wonderful things, His right hand and His holy arm have gained the victory for Him. (Psalm 98:1, NASB)

I know that I’m not a good singer but, I can sing. Like everyone else, all of us can sing. Yun nga lang hindi lahat gifted ng magandang boses and I’m one of them. But, no one can stop us from belting out some tunes. Sing your heart out! Even if you’re out of tune. I believe it’s about your heart and it’s not about your good voice. Kaya, may mga boses na alam mo yun, yung ramdam na ramdam mo, may hugot mula sa kailaliman eh. Because, singing is breathing for the soul. It’s something that you can express and say. On key, or off key, okay lang yan. It’s good for the soul.

Sometimes, we also have to consider what we sing. Kasi, kung ano yung kinakanta natin yun din ang usually na dinedeclare natin over our lives. Much better if we sing praises for the LORD. so He can feel your love for Him. Siya yung pagkinantahan mo di lang nasatisfy yung soul mo. Pero, pag kinantahan mo Siya, aside sa napangiti mo na Siya at na-glorify mo Siya, you are also acknowledging and inviting His presence and it will empower and strengthen you more. Often times, we think only of singing when we’re happy and we just feel a good times, but singing is not just that, it brings spiritual strength as well. Read Acts 16. Paul and Silas are persecuted and suffered unjustly imprisoned for the sake of the Gospel, and what do they do while they’re in prison? Sing! (Acts 16:25) Even in suffering, ikanta mo lang yan bes!

  1. Show appreciation for everything.

But we request of you, brethren, that you appreciate those who diligently labor among you, and have charge over you in the Lord and give you instruction. (1 Thessalonians 5:12, NASB)

O’ kay sarap magappreciate ng tao. The smallest gestures of appreciation and love from people around you would really mean a lot to them, minsan hindi lang natin alam. Pero everyone deserves to be appreciated. Hindi lang pag may okasyon. Hindi lang po masarap maappreciate ng iba pero, I realized na minsan mas masarap pa yung ikaw yung magaappreciate, we don’t even know what’s the impact of that to the person you appreciated. It can be as simple as “I appreciate your *tell him/her what’s good to him/her”. Just a simple compliment will make them feel loved. Do nice things for others. Kung hindi keri iappreciate ng personal, pwede mo naman siyang sulatan just to appreciate him/her, there is nothing more satisfying and heartwarming than putting a smile on someone else’s face. Be a blessing to other through appreciating them.

Take time every day to initiate random acts of kindness. Be kind to others, you don’t know what they’re going through. You can appreciate a person in many different ways sometimes, you also have to figure out his/her love language. “Do good and feel good.”

  1. Learn to forgive.

Take heed to yourselves. If your brother sins against you, rebuke him; and if he repents, forgive him. And if he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times in a day returns to you, saying, ‘I repent,’ you shall forgive him. (Luke 17:3-4, NKJV)

Well, natural talagang may makakasakit at makakasakit sayo. People will fail you. (but God will not). People are going to hurt you your entire life but forgiveness is not based on other people’s treatment to you but on your own attitude and decision. Last year, there was this person who hurt me (medyo bonnga), and I can’t explain the feelings I felt at first because I’ve never felt them before in my life. Yung ganong ka-O.A. Yes, I felt betrayed, discouraged, bitterness, hurt, pissed and many many more. But, after a month, I was able to forgive that person after all the process I’ve done, it doesn’t happen in a day, process talaga! Pero dapat faster ka din mag-process bawal slowmo, kasi the more mong pinapatagal the more mo lang sinasaktan at sinasaktan ang puso mo. After all the dramas na ‘why you do this to me?’, when I really forgave that person from deep inside of my heart, natanggal yung mga tinik eh, all the emotions that normally stirred no longer existed.

Forgiveness is the key to move forward. You cannot be stuck with anger and resentment forever but also acknowledge that healing takes time. Choose to move forward. – Ptra. Lovely Santiago

Yes, I can’t forget what that person did, It is hard to look at someone the same after they have done wrong to you. How do you forgive the person that caused you too much pain? Ano yun pagtapos ng lahat, limot mo na, nauntog lang? Syempre, hindi ganon yun. But I just decided to let go, and I choose forgiveness. You can’t forget but, you can forgive! I also realize that I have hurt a lot of people too (tao lang rin nasasaktan at nakakasakit) and I deserve forgiveness just as much as the next person. Everyone deserves forgiveness regardless of how bigger the offense is. God always forgives, so why can’t we?

  1. The older you get, the friendships are to maintain.

A man with many friends can still be ruined, but a true friend sticks closer than a brother. (Proverbs 18:24, ISV)

Sobrang naging mahalaga talaga sa akin ang quality time for every friendship that I had. I believe it’s one of the important thing that a friendship could have; yung oras. At yun yung way para mamaintain ang isang friendship. We all need friendships? right? Meron bang kayang mabuhay mag-isa? or rephrase na lang natin meron bang nabuhay sa mundo na automatic solo na siya? Wala naman di ba? Pero, as we getting older mahirap naman talaga imaintain ang friendship lalo na kung ‘hindi mo sasadyain na iwork-out to’. Sinasadya din yan! Graduating student in college, they’re a lot more work compare to last sems’s sched. But, I always make sure to have time for my friends. Because, I believe that’s the best love that you can offer to your friends, a quality time. I don’t want to make an excuse that I’m busy. Kasi, ‘pag mahal mo, lalaanan mo ng oras’. I-maintain ang friendship. It’s the best treasure that you can have.

Many find their significant others. Some of the people will be okay with the way you communicate and keep in touch, and others won’t. Friendships can also hurt you. But then, it’s important to realize we all lead busy lives, so showing your friends grace when they don’t meet your expectations is also an important thing to keep in mind.

There are also friends who won’t stay. But, will remind us to focus on the awesome people who stayed with us as opposed to focusing on the person who left. We, as humans, have a tendency to focus on what’s left, but the grass is not always greener on the other side. When you take a minute to think about the people in your life, you realize that you are too blessed with these people.

  1. Stay encouraged.

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. (Isaiah 43:2, NLT)

Madami talagang pagkakataon na gustong nakawin ang joy mo at ididiscourage ka ng ididiscourage talaga but, it’s always a wise thing to stay encourage! Ikaw lang din ang talo pag nagpadiscourage ka. Strain forward to what lies ahead.

So lemme’ share you somethin’… I was invited to one of the largest event for the web. (can only explain the further details in personal message) I must admit that I felt that I’m not for that, I’m not good at it and I’m not fit for that. I have a lot of *gusto-ko-ng-lumubog-sa-lupa moments* that time. There’s this one person there who was about to discourage me and tells me a lot of things. Na-na-na-na. I honestly felt discouraged. But then, it suddenly reminds me that I should stay encourage. When you go through deep waters, God says ‘I will be with you’. Deep waters can symbolizes fields. Kung saang field ka man ni Lord nilagay ngayon, God is with you. You have nothing to be feared. There’s no reason for you to be discourage because, everyone has their own great qualities, great skills, great abilities and capabilities about themselves, and sometimes some people’s progress, and going to the next step takes a bit longer than others, but never be and let others discourage on how slow a progress you are making. Just keep going! Sabi nga ni dory, ‘just keep swimming, just keep swimming’. Have continual progress that is not stopping and just do your best. Always look forward in life.

May time na magfafail ka talaga but, the sign of failure means that you are trying. Nobody is a failure. You might fail at doing somethings, but never make that into a weakness. And it will never be your identity. Failure means success in the long run. Stay encourage! *tap yourself on the back.*

  1. You’ re not living for yourself alone.

Jesus said, “The first in importance is, ‘Listen, Israel: The Lord your God is one; so love the Lord God with all your passion and prayer and intelligence and energy.’ And here is the second: ‘Love others as well as you love yourself.’ There is no other commandment that ranks with these.” (Mark 12:30-31, MSG)

This month of february, it’s my everyday prayer to God na ‘Lord, enlarge my heart. I want to love more people’. Love one another by extending a helping hand also. It is so rewarding to show someone compassionate and kindness. I think everyone deserves to have that kind of feeling, to love and to be loved.

You also need a discipleship group or a faith group to grow in all area of your life. And to experience a godly love from one another. Remember you’re not living for yourself alone. Even Jesus doesn’t lived Himself alone. Want to join a discipleship group? Attend Sunday Service at Faithful Jesus Church at SM Muntinlupa Cinema 3, Tagalog Service: 9:30 AM and English Service: 10:40 AM. Someone will approach you there to join a small group. See you there!

  1. Don’t be afraid to try again.

But as for you, be strong and do not give up, for your work will be rewarded. (2 Chronicles 15:7, NIV)

Because I’m afraid to feel that again, to happen that again because of the same reason, I’m scared that I would make the same decisions which have caused me severe regrets, pain and self-pity. Hindi naman porket nagkamali ka ng isang beses eh ayaw mo na agad, ayaw mo na ulit magtry. Don’t let a hard lesson harden your heart. Every failures should be treat as a lesson. Nagkamali ka hindi para ulitin ulit. But, it will mold you to become a better person. You will become wiser if you encounter thiings like this. Lahat naman tayo may pagkakamali but it is not our identity. Bumagsak man, nadapa man, don’t be afraid to try again! Trust people again, take risks, don’t bury yourself again too deep. But, be wise to handle everything.

  1. Dogs are man’s bestfriend.

A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need. (Proverbs 17:17, NLT)

For those who followed me on instagram and use to checked my ig stories, you know definitely about this. Dati talaga hindi ako mahilig sa dogs. Takot pa nga ko sakanila para kasing ang sakit sakit pag kinagat ka nila. Pero, nung dumating si Shelby (my pet’s name) sa buhay ko, blessing talaga! As-in! Mapa-anong weather kaibigan mo talaga siya at kaibigan ka talaga niya. Tipong galing ka from school, galing ka from OJT, pagod and all pero everyday sasalubungin ka niya, lalambingin ka niya, nakakawala talaga ng pagod. Aside sa stress reliever siya sayo, comforter din. One time nung pumunta ako sa room ko ng naiyak pinuntahan ako ni Shelby, nung time na yun ramdam na ramdam ko na nararamdaman niya yung nararamdaman ko, inakyat niya pa ko sa kama tapos yung mahimas mo lang yung dog mo feeling comforted ka na. Dama niya din kapag malungkot ka, mapa-anong season man yan. Masaya ka, malungkot ka, alam mong nandiyan lang siya. Indeed, my dog is a great blessing for me! Hindi complete ang 19th ko kung wala si Shelby.

  1. Busyness is a choice.

But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.” But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! (Luke 10:40-41, NLT)

If we read the whole story it symbolizes a great example of the consequences of busyness. We rush around doing “what needs to be accomplish,” while missing the glimpses of Jesus all around us and spend time with our love ones because, we are too busy to do a lot of things. Let us all allow ourselves to take it easy for a while. Now if you know me personally, you will know I am a ‘doer’. It’s in my nature to do a lot of different things and try different things as well, nabobored ako kapag hindi busy. Kaya, bata pa lang ako hilig ko na talaga sumali ng mga organizations or clubs sa school. Aligaga sa ganto, sa ganyan plus isasabay sa aral. Stressful naman talaga at overwhelming. It was really hard. But, I realize that sometimes busyness doesn’t help me anymore, mas lalo lang akong nagiging lituhin at nawawala yung quality sa bawat works. And because of this, I challenged myself. Magkaiba kasi yung busy ka sa productive. Kapag productive ka, from the word PRODUCT, ibig sabihin may naproproduce ka, may output. Pero, pag busy ka hindi automatic na productive ka. Magkaiba yun.

Sometimes we just have to manage, organize and find a way through a particularly exhausting tasks. Relax ka lang! Wag mo masyadong i-pressure ang mga bagay-bagay. Especially for those who have their thesis. Alam naman natin gaano kalaking oras ang kinakaen sa atin ng pag-gawa ng thesis? Ako po, from Monday to Thursday may OJT ako sa IFE Elevators Philippines. It takes 1 and half hour from here to Madrigal Alabang. Depende pa yun. Kasi ang hirap sumakay ng umaga. Makikipag-gitgitan ka talaga. 8A.M pasok ko hanggang 5P.M then paguwi naman yun yung time ko para i-check yung mga dapat namang gawin sa school. Time to review, time to take online quizzes, time to do my thesis. Pag friday naman pumupunta akong school yun na lang kasi yung time na makapagpacheck ng papers and all. 1P.M ng friday may cell group naman ako sa AMA Senior high then 4P.M pupunta akong church para mag CYOD-Wise Kids naman haggang 9P.M ako sa church ng friday. Then, saturday talaga yung pinaka klase ko simula 8A.M hanggang 5P.M after class dederetso naman akong church para i-meet yung disciples ko and umaasang maabutan pa ang CYOD. Ang sunday naman 8:30A.M ang call time namin sa digisciples. Of course, it’s sabbath day, time to worship GOD, time to serve people and after sunday service mentoring naman with my mentor after naman non, I have to bond with my family. In all of this, I don’t want to label myself as a busy person. But, I want to count myself as a productive person. Chinallenge ko talaga yung sarili ko ng bonggang bongga na “yes, graduating student ako. But, it will never be my excuse to love GOD and to love people.” Busyness is a choice. Make time for everything!

  1. Anxiety doesn’t help you.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7, NLT)

Anxiety does not define me. Isa talaga sa mga nagiging alalahin ko taon-taon, monthly-monthly, basta every semester. Walang iba kundi ang mahiwaga kong scholar. Maapprove ba o hindi, matatagalan ba o hindi, makakaexam ba ko o hindi. Laging nakabingit sa katotohanan ang peg ko every examination sa school. And I have to always remind myself that God is in control over everything so I don’t have to worry about it. If you have always been so incredibly self-conscious about your anxiety, leave it to GOD. Most of the time, it’s a test of faith. You will realize that anxiety will only affect you as much as you allow it to.

  1. Cherish your parents.

Honor your father and mother, as the LORD your God commanded you. Then you will live a long, full life in the land the LORD your God is giving you. (Deuteronomy 5:16, NLT)

Ever since, my parents are my priorities. And it should be maintained. Spend time with them, watch a movie with them, stroll with them, keep them updated, talk to them about your everyday, because parents really like that. Treat them with love and care. Minsan mas close pa tayo sa mga kaibigan natin pero try to reach out your parents, you can talk to them anytime. The more na kinukwentuhan natin sila, the more nabuibuild ang relationship. Parents are your bestfriends also. Keep yourself close to them and show them that you love them so much.

  1. Quality always wins in the end.

Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. (Matthew 16:24, ESV)

If you are about to build anything that is successful in the long term (mapa-business man yan, mapa-discipleship, mapa-pagaaral) you need to focus on ‘quality’. One of the great example of first quality that Jesus mentions is that a true disciple “denies himself”. Para magkaroon ng quality sa lahat ng bagay, there is something that you have to suffer. Si Jesus hindi nagfocus sa quantity, nagfocus Siya sa quality. Kasi, pag nagfocus ka sa quality kasunod na nun ang quantity. Invest in things that focuses on delivering quality and being the best, then it will prosper in the long run, too.

  1. Sleeping early is good for the health.

In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat– for He grants sleep to those He loves. (Psalm 127:2, NIV)

Ito talaga isa sa mga chinallenge ko sa sarili ko. If you know me, alam mong nocturnal person talaga ako at hirap na hirap talaga ako makatulog noon. I’m worried at staying up all hours of the night, but I have found, lately, that sleep is very important. When I started to have a proper sleep and have a good night sleep, it helps me function throughout the day. Sleeping early is really good for the health + you know, we all need a little bit of beauty sleep. It’s a gift from God.

  1. True joy lies in the act of giving.

A generous person will prosper; whoever refreshes others will be refreshed. (Proverbs 11:25, NIV)

We all know how great it feels to receive gifts. But, as I grow older I realize that it feels better to give rather than to receive. Our lives are richer when we give and that great ‘inner joy’ comes from reaching out other through their needs. Truly, the more you give from the heart, the more your life fills with joy, lots of happines and nourishes your soul. You attract the blessings that is coming from the Lord, whenever you bless other people in different ways.

 A Chinese proverb says: “If you always give, you will always have.”

  1. I am choosen. (period-no erase).

But you are not like that, for you are a chosen people. You are royal priests, a holy nation, God’s very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light. (1 Peter 2:9, NLT)

January 23, 2017, it was last month, I felt that I’m not chosen that time. May pili-factor na naganap between me and another person. Di lang pala felt, suddenly, hindi pala talaga ako napili. Syempre, sad yun. Kahit sino naman siguro ayaw yung feeling na hindi siya mapili. Mapa-contest, mapa-best awardees, mapa-relationship. But, we have to accept it in the end. Of  course, we all want to be choose, but not all the time you’ll be choose by someone. Minsan mapipili ka, minsan hindi din. Pero, si Lord pag pinili ka, pinili ka na talaga. Wala ng atrasan yun! Ang malupet pa dun si Lord pag pumili hindi bumabase sa galing mo, mas ginagamit pa ni Lord yung mga ordinary na tao to do extraordinary things for His glory alone! Habang dito sa mundo pinipili kung sino magaling, kung sino ganto at kung sino yung ganyan pero, si Lord hindi ganon. Kaya, pag si LORD ang pumili sayo, humanda ka kasi kakaiba yun more than people who chose you in this temporary world. I remember that day, I told to Him, “Lord, hindi man ako yung napili neto, pinili Mo naman po ako” and I just pour it out to God. Just imagine, King of all kings, Lord of all lords, pinili ka! sinong hindi maamaze nun? Yung ‘chosen’ na word hindi yun base sa mga tao dito sa mundo pero yung description mong ‘I am chosen by God’ it will lasts eh. And that’s what matters to me most.

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What I Want VS. What God Wants

June 02, 2016 exactly 12 a.m in the morning it was announced in Manila X Festival’s site that I won 2 tickets. Obviously, I was so surprise and glad. Before June 02, 2016 around last week of May, I really prayed and did an action to win in that contest because, I really wanted to be there and witness the first ever Manila X Festival. And most of all, I want to see my favorite artist and bands there like Yeng Constantino, Up Dharma Down and The Juans. hehehe. So, I don’t want to miss that opportunity. But, to make the long story short, I couldn’t make it. (Right now, I’m very sure the concert is on going. lol.) Last night, after my night class, I went to church for worker’s meeting. And then, my mentor already knew it that I will not be able to attend CYOD even if I didn’t tell her earlier so one of my ka-mentee teased me hahaha. Plus, travelling back at home my disciple PM’ed me. She told me that she will attend CYOD. So, I am more confused If I’m still going on Manila X Festival or will attend CYOD. Huhuhu. I talked to GOD. And praying for a wisdom. Because, that moment I don’t feel a sense of “peace” to go in that concert. Although, that’s once in a lifetime. Yes, honestly, I don’t want to miss the opportunity to see my fav’s. But, it will break my heart if I miss the opportunity to meet my disciples.

June 04, 2016, 9 a.m in the morning it was all set. I’m very prepared and excited for the concert but still my heart is not at peace. After a few hours, my best friend called me that she can’t make it today. I felt sad about her news. So, I texted my other friends and one of my friend is willing to be with me. But then, I decided not to go anymore. So, I already told my mama & my mentor that I won’t go on Manila X Festival. My mama told me that maybe “it is God’s will”. And my mentor told me that “God has His ways.” In any decision we have the opportunity to choose. And this is one of the opportunity to practice wisdom. There is a purpose behind everything. I am so busy planning for the concert not even asking God’s opinion about it. Now, I learn to lean. I learn to ask and seek. I learn to be more obedient [obedience out of love]. I learn that my God is so powerful enough to do and fulfill EVERYTHING in EVERY WAY. I want Him to direct my path even when I’m about to make choices in life. So, yeah, I was about to take a bath a while ago when GOD spoke to me, I just cried.. To be honest, I want to be in Manila X Festival but, I want to obey and submit to God [out of love]. I should be serious about following God’s will, and I have to recognize that it’s not about getting what I want, but what God asks. His will is what’s best for me. 2PM, me and my ka-meente went to te amo and 4PM, I attended CYOD. I’m telling you, “It’s worth it!”. Worth it to choose HIM first and put GOD above all else.

My Roller Coaster 2015

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365/365. This is the last day of 2015. So before 2015 ends, I decided to share some experiences,  tell you what has been happening in my life. And share the things that excite me. I just want to share this verse, readers! Deut. 31:6, masasabi kong parang roller coaster talaga ang 2015 ko, masyado ng gasgas ang quotation na “Ang buhay ay parang roller coaster, may ups and downs. ” Pero yun naman talaga yun eh may ups, downs, screams, laughs. Pero, sa lahat ng yon, Deut. 31:6 ang pangako ng Diyos na aking pinanghawakan sa buong taon.

Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you. (Deuteronomy 31:6, ESV)

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For the last couple of months, I have been in transition. Okay tapos hindi, okay tapos hindi okay. Tataas sabay bababa, tataas sabay bababa. Pero sa lahat ng yon, dun ako mas lalong naging matatag, dun ko mas lalong nakilala yung sarili ko, dun mas lumabas yung tunay na ako, dun ako mas na transform, and it’s all because of His unending grace in my life. Too many to mention sa mga nangyare sakin, sa mga natutunan, sa mga big events sa buhay ko, lalo na’t pagdating sa school. Looking back on 2015, being a president of Junior Philippine Computer Society – AMA Biñan Local Chapter is one of the longest and hardest journey in my life. The rest of the time, I have to deal with people issues. You really have to be strong and courageous to handle everything, in terms of physical and emotional area. In all my year of leadership and representing JPCS, I can hardly recall a time when I was not dealing with an issue as such.  Some people issues are small, some are big, and some are unbearably painful. But, as I grew, I was able to handle those issues by the help of our God. Because of God’s wisdom in my life, I was able to manage all those issues, as long as I know my identity in Christ. Maybe, If I am not careful and was not able to manage, it can keep me up at night, and send me into bouts of depression, discourage and anxious.  Why?  Because understanding, inspiring, organizing, aligning, and keeping a group of people focused and passionate is simply difficult. Also, I always have to remind myself that I don’t have to please people. Being a leader can be a rewarding experience but it also means facing a host of anticipated and unexpected challenges.

Dumating din sa point na kailangan kong ayusin yung mga priorities ko sa buhay. The most challenging year as well. Struggle sa scholar, struggle sa pagpapataas ng grades, struggle na lang sa lahat. But then, I always have to remind myself ano nga ba talaga ang first priority ko? It is then that I should play my role as a wise, focused, and resolute servant of God. Time management is very important as well. Yan naman yung taon-taon na gusto kong iimprove sa sarili ko kung paano ko mamanage ang time ko.

Sa buong 2015 ko, alam ko si Lord ang aking kasama. Kaya nagagawa ko ang lahat ng ito. Sa lahat ng scars, hurts, pains, burdens, brokenness, sadness, I still thank God for everthing dahil walang panahon na pinabayaan Niya ko. Wala kong maisip na oras na iniwan Niya ko sa panahon na walang wala ako, sa panahon na down na down ako. Though, I feel tired and my breathlessness is still there in the wings, I have rested as much as I can so that I can try and fight this journey that little bit more. I’d say 2015 has been an incredibly tough year, It’s certainly been one of my most difficult, confusing years I’ve triumphed thus far & I know I’m not the only one in that boat. Right? But then, this scars reminds me how good and how faithful the Lord is. Sa pagtatapos ng taon ko, akala ko okay na, tapos na, akala ko magiging smooth na lahat, pero hindi pala. Isa sa mga painful experience ko yung pagtatapos ng taon (Too private). Pero kahit ganun pa man, dun mo pa din talaga makikita kung gaano kabuti ang Diyos sa buhay ko. Kahit na naranasan ko yun and I know everyone of us will experience that o yung iba na experience na, lahat naman tayo pagdadaanan yung sakit na ganun, always remind yourself : “Deuteronomy 31:6” Alalahin lang natin lahat ng pangako ng Diyos. God is so faithful. God is so good. God is so gracious. God is so awesome!

I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. (Psalms 16:8)

After all, I think we are only just at the beginning of a very long and unknown journey. And as they say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger!

So this was 2015 and it was fully packed and intense but in the end it was lacking far behind a lot of my personal goals and hopes, it’s good to be on a longer time out to find time to think about it again and make 2016 a bigger, better year and prove that mistakes can be made as long as you learned the lesson and adjust.

I have seen many failures throughout the year by myself but still God’s mercy and grace still remains. I thank God for having my family, church mates, mentor, disciple, and friends which I am tremendously, incredibly thankful. Thank you sa mga nag-stay. Thank you sa mga naging parte ng 2015 ko at sa mga susunod pang taon. Thank you sa mga nandiyan parati.Hindi ko na kayo iisa-isahin. Maraming salamat sa inyo!

There are many things in life to be thankful for.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28, NIV)

Marami pa rin ang mga blessings na dapat ipagpasalamat sa Diyos. Sobrang dami. Sobrang dami at sobrang dami. Una na sa lahat diyan ay ang makasama yung family ko magsimba tuwing Linggo. Kung meron man akong sobrang ipagpapasalamat sa Diyos yun ay yung blinessed ako ng family na ganto. A big shoutout to my family for standing by my side through this whole year. For my family who held my hand and said, “You got this!” in the times I was so close to giving up. My family who’s always there for me. Thank you, for an open ears to all my never-ending rants, for all the dramas, for all the kwentos and laughs. For my family who really cheered on me and supported me all through out the year, thank you so much and i love you.

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After all, It’s a “BLESSED 2015”, looking back at the past 12 months, it has really been such a blast. This year has been one full of surprises. God gave me more than I expected and more than I think I’ll ever need. Thank You for all the answered prayers, Lord. As much as I want to repeat 2015, all I can do now is look and move forward to the new year. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for me!

This year, I started writing the things that I want to achieve within this year and I am glad that most of those that I’ve written were already crossed out. Super excited na ko ngayong taon. Since, this 2016 mag dedebut na ko. Wuhooo! I’m turning 18 on February 27, 2016. *Oops!*. Excited na ko sa mga gagawin pa ni Lord sa buhay ko. Since, isa pa sa mga unforgettable experience ko ang maranasan ang Fire Camp nung Dec. 27, 28 & 29 kelan lang siya, so eto ako on fire na on fire. Wuhooo! And praying na mamaintain na to, ggang matapos ang taong 2016.

Making goals is one of my favorite things to do. I love having a plan, something to work towards.

Let’s make goals this year:
1) Share the Gospel to at least one person each month & build a cell group on my campus and on LNC as well, ask for they’re commitment towards the gift of eternal life the Lord Jesus offers.
2) Consistent spiritual discipline – quiet time in the morning (prayer, devotion, bible-reading, and quiet time/listening to God) and praying unceasingly as each moment goes.
3) Being productive and excellent on Digisciple (Ministry). To learn more and improve my commitment as well.
4) Encourage others through God’s Word as the Holy Spirit leads. Include prayer, too, and best done together if you can.
5) Use my planner every day I would really like 2016 to be a year of staying organized and on track. Checking on the short-term and long-term goal and make it happen as well.

Hoping to learn more in 2016 and a more productive year ahead of me and of you, too. Yow, Happy New Year!

It is always my goal to make the next year even better than the previous. I’m very excited to see what surprises God has in store for me this year! yay! 2016, I’m sure you will be amazing!

I’m so excited to embrace 2016. Not just with New Year Resolutions but, with an openness to receive more visions & goals coming from the Lord.

Another year of success and happiness has passed. With every new year, comes greater challenges and obstacles in life.

Thank God for everything that happened this year. There may be bad times but there’s always good times.

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Random Writings

“If you ask me how I am doing, I would say I am doing just fine…”

-Not over you. 

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For I want my heart to rest until wounds heal…

I have decided to completely forget. I made up my mind that your name would be forbidden words to utter. Every time I’ll see a thing that reminds me of you, I’ll just close my eyes.  I have decided to take a leap and move on. To delete everything about the false memories I have hidden. I take away all the memories. To see you in a light how others look at you. And not to think the way I think about you. I made up my mind to let go of the view I have for you within. I decided to put a period. Move forward. And leave everything to the Lord.

I believed the promises you said. Believed in dreams of my own imagination. Believed in things that would never happen in reality.  Believed in nothing. Because I was drown in false meaning of love you defined for me. I would have left the ocean for you even you took everything away and just gave me little self-respect.

I never thought a person’s mind could think of someone over and over again. Only so real to miss that people and to cry for a hope that even just for a second, I could forget everything about you.

P.S: Random thoughts only. 11:11PM

Thankful for 2014: Thank You, Jesus. (INSPIRED)

I was about to scroll my account. Wala scroll scroll lang sa facebook, twitter, news, tumblr etc. For sure kasi madaming mga New Year’s Resolution, & New Year’s Realization ang mga mababasa ko. Kanyang kanyang post. Kanya-kanyang pasasalamat sa mga naging part ng kanilang 2014. Fresh start. Everyone was positive that 2015 will be a great year!

So here’s the TOP 3 post na nakaagaw ng pansin ko. Nakaka-amaze! I was blessed by they’re post. Isa silang artist/singer/song-writer/musician. They perform in front of audiences but also knows how to worship God. IS IT AMAZING?

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1. Yeng Constantino

Actually last last year post pa ito, January 21, 2012. Pero habang nagiiscroll ako ng mga post ni Yeng on the mission hehe, I found this one! Isa si Yeng sa mga favorite artist ko. Hindi lang sa dahil magaling siya kumanta at magcompose ng kanta kundi dahil sa sobrang passionate niya rin to serve Jesus. And dahil dun habang nagbabasa ako ng mga posts at blogs niya nag-struck sakin tong mga words na to. I find this awesome! & Very powerful talaga! as in! “SURRENDER EVERYTHING TO GOD”.  Sa tingin ko kasi ngayong magbabagong taon, heto ang pinakamagandang bagay na gawin natin. Yung masurrender natin at malet’go natin lahat lahat kay Lord. Yung sins, doubts, frustrations, burdens, fear, disappointments, failures, guilt and shame. It would be the best fresh start for all of us. “LEAVE EVERYTHING TO GOD”. Kung ayaw natin maging mabigat ang ating 2015. From the smallest things to the biggest things. Let God hold your world.

2. Gary Valenciano

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Gary V. is also known as Mr. Pure Energy. Nakikinig ako paminsan minsan ng mga kanta ni Gary V. at very inspirational ng mga Christian Music na kinompose niya. Kaya naman nakaamaze na napakasikat niya sa ating industriya pero still, nandun yung pagiging proud niya kung sino ang Diyos sa buhay niya. I saw this twitter post last last month. I think October ata yun. Nakakainspired di ba? Yung prayer na ganyan. Nakakaencourage! to pray for the wisdom and discernment. This coming 2015, nawa’ mas lalo pang tumindi ang mga prayer life natin. Before this year ends, wag nating kalimutang magdasal kay Lord. And let’s expect more great things from above. Asking is the rule of kingdom. Prepare na natin ang mga big prayer requests natin. Thank you, Jesus. “MORE PRAYER, MORE POWER!”

3. Zildjian Benitez

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I just wanted to share that I had a WICKED year this 2014! There may be failures, downs or discouragements I had this year but it didn’t made me give up as a musician or a person. This is all for the glory of God. Let His kingdom come and will be done this coming 2015  Have a Happy New Year everyone! – Zildjian Benitez

Ang pinakalast, si Zildjian Benitez. Ang iba sa inyo kilala siya, ang iba naman hindi. Isa siyang musician at the same time, nakanta rin. Isa siyang anak ng Pastor. Member siya ng G2B Boys, kung napanuod niyong ‘Got to believe in magic’ at naabutan niyo yung ‘Ikaw na na na’, siya yung nag-gitara dun. Member din siya ng bandang 4 of spades. Ayon, ayon lamang ang alam ko sakanya. Sikat na siya pero sapat lang hindi ganoon compare dun sa dalawang una. 16 or 17 years old na siya, mga ganoon. At the very young age, nagseserve na siya kay Lord. Basta ang alam ko, he serve Jesus through music. Amazing! December 31, 2014. After kong mag’devotion kaninang umaga, nagiiscroll ako ng news feed sa facebook at ito ang unang unang nabasa ko. As ing- una! hahaha Salubong! Habang binabasa ko to, napaisip ako ‘I feel him’ Hahahah. Ganto rin kasi yung gusto kong ishare ngayong patapos na ang 2014. I HAVE SO MANY MANY MANY FAILURES! I have nothing to be ashamed of. Lahat naman siguro tayo naranasan mag-fail at mag-fall. Paano matututo kung hindi dadaan sa failures, right? Walang exempted! Pero gustung gusto ko sa lyrics ng ‘From the inside out (Everlasting) by Hillsong’ yung A thousand times I’ve failed. Still your mercy remains.” Favorite line. At Favorite na favorite kong sabihin yan every time I failed. I believe that the love that God has for me extends to the heavens. His plans for me are not limited by my failures and mistakes. His grace is sufficient or enough to lift me from this state, and take me to where He wants me to be. I am surrendering to my Lord’s ability and wisdom to get me through this. I quit desperately trying to work everything out on my own. Minsan aasar asarin ka ni satan na, ‘uhhh, uhhh Loser belat! Failure!’ Pero I realized yung mga ganoon di dapat pinakikinggan yon. “JESUS DIED FOR ME!” Yun lang sapat na. Sapat na si Jesus ❤! Kaya sa mga nagui-guilty diyan this 2014 sa mga failures at mistakes nila. God is a forgiving God. It’s time for all of us to repent sa mga kasalanang nagawa natin. Leave your past behind you, and start over. It’s hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. A new way of living and looking at the world. Letting go of old habits, old memories. What’s important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning. It’s all because of Jesus who gave His life and love for us. But it’s also important to remember that amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to. Failure is inevitable, unavoidable but failure should never get the last word. You have to hold on to what you want. You have to not take no for an answer and take what’s coming to you. Never give in, never give up. Stand up. STAND UP AND TAKE IT! Thanks for inspiring zild! keep fighting for Jesus.

Change… We don’t like it, we fear it. But we can’t stop it from coming. We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. It hurts to grow. Anybody who tells you it doesn’t, is lying. But here’s the truth: Sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. Make a change!

Sobrang amazing lang talaga na makakita ng isang artist/musician na hindi lang basta basta nagpeperform in front of audiences pero yung merong Diyos sa puso nila. Yung tipong kahit sikat sila at madaming umiidulo sakanila still, THEY BRING BACK ALL THE PRAISES AND GLORY TO OUR GOD! Taong hindi nahihiya na ipakita sa lahat ng tao na Mahal nila si God. Sobra lang. Naguumapaw. Yung feeling na ginagawa nila to kasi di na nila ma-contain ang happiness at revelation ni God but hindi nila alam na madaming naiinspire at nacu-curious din kay God at sila ay nagiging instrumento. Sobrang amazing! This coming 2015, Una (Yeng), Surrender everything to God [Bigay mo na lahat lahat kay Lord, wala dapat ititira]. Pangalawa (Gary V.), Be prayerful [Be thankful to Jesus for 365 blessed days]. Pangatlo (Zild), Confess everything to God. “Wag mong kakalimutan that God is a forgiving God. “HIS GRACE AND MERCY ENDURETH FOREVER” (Psalms 100:5).

Even if you’re tired, even if you want to walk away. You don’t. Because you are a pioneer. But nobody ever said it’d be easy.

Grace be with you all,

Sheim 🌙

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Weekly Post: Chapter 3 (The lost and found)

WEEKLY POST(6)The story of my life has many chapters. One bad chapter doesn’t mean it’s the end of the book.

Sa dami dami dami dami dami dami ng tao dito sa mundo paano ko mahahanap ang nawawala kong wallet? Fresh pain a while ago. I have that feeling na maraming importanteng bagay doon para sa akin. Memories and remembrance? Yung gospel and invitation na unang invite sa akin. Yung id’s, yung tickets. syempre yung allowance. Lahat lahat pati yung wallet na mahal :\, I too much value the things I have and the things that are given to me that’s why it cause me pain. Sunday morning when I lost my wallet. I dunno’ where I misplace it. All I know, that wallet is very important to me. Umaasa akong maibabalik siya. Til’ now, the pain. It won’t go away, today. But the reality too won’t change. It is a decision for me to completely forget what happened and convince myself that it never come back anymore. But I pray, kung sino man may hawak nung wallet na iyon. Lord, touch his/her heart. So I will wake up in the morning bearing the pain of reality because I am in the road of accepting. Wallet lang yun, hindi ko pagpapalit ang gladness ko.

The truth is, I will not blog about this, wallet thinggy-u know. I’m physically tired pero magalak ang aking puso sa pagkapanalo nitong intams. 3 days intrams was a great experience for me. First time ko mag-intrams sa AMA. And I received 3 champions (Table tennis – Single [Women] & Mixed Doubles, Badminton -Single[Women]) All glory belongs to God! One thing I realized, nanalo nga ako. But after all this thing, Inside my heart, may lungkot pa din. This coming saturday, may event sa church. Na dapat nakapaginvite ako instead of playing around, hitting that shuttlecock. Waking up early, doing stretching and waiting for the game. I feel guilt. I feel unsatisfied. I feel sad. Because I feel right now, that it was a wrong way. But, thanks be to God, for His mercy and grace. For He is a forgiving God!

Blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven, Whose sin is covered. Blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity, And in whose spirit there is no deceit. (Psalms 32:1-2, NIV)

Sa kabila ng lahat ng ito, saya sa pagkapanalo at lungkot sa biglang pagkawala, Still, PRAISE GOD! Maybe now, I’ll start another chapter. Move on. I am seeking always to have a start because I want to forget things I’ve done in a wrong way. But it is supposed to be like that? Forgetting what is behind and run like you had never carried faults in your life?

Do we really need to forget? Because at some point, sometimes, I see sweetness in pain. I see a charm in tears that have fallen. Looking back, thou’ it was a mess and unattractive, it is the reason I appreciate where I am and what I have today.

Mistakes, pains, and hardships are the ones we  mostly want to forget. But it is all the ones that  make us to keep going. We  keep trying harder, we keep fighting, we keep running, and we keep making things in proper order to rebuild things rightly. It  helps us to create our trace in this world. So that at the end of our lives we can say to ourselves, “My Life isn’t lifeless at all!” 

At the  end of  the  day I realize it is not about everything that happened. It is about the time I am always looking at. I am still that girl who thinks that time is always running out. I still put comfort in fast-paced and never want to see things slowly or in its regularity. Still, every time I fell to the ground, & every time I fail, still God’s mercy remains. Failure and success are both the possible endings of every season in my life.

In failure, I truly learn my weaknesses and things I cannot do next time. In success, I learn my strengths, the things I can and qualities I have that I can use again. And in both, I experience the mercy, grace and love of God. It is like learning the advantages and disadvantages of things around me.

What matters for me is the journey and not the ending. Endings are just bonus where I can say “Yeheyyyy! Finally, tapos na.” or “Wow! It is awesome! I want to do it again!” And in every journey I am in naman there’s only one thing that is always being point up. It is GOD IS IN ME, GOD IS WITH ME & GOD IS FOR ME and there’s always a next chapter with Him. I was lost for a week but now I am found again. More grace more love.

When do I ever learn? I am always like this and makes me forget to enjoy things  at a time. I am greedy to have it all at once not realizing that one present a day is equal to unceasing happiness than getting and unwrapping the gifts at  one once and not having anything tomorrow. 

I know that I have to go back. I do not know where to find what I am losing because I don’t also know what specifically I have lost. But if there’s one thing I am sure of right now, it is the want to write the way I used to. To find the softness again. To go back.

Balik laban!

Life is a battle and a race. A battle with God’s enemy and a race where winner does not mean you are the fastest but the strongest and the one who really perseveres. Because the race I am talking about is not just an ordinary one, it is a race where  you are risking it all for your faith.

Right now, I feel better. I find comfort because of- JESUS ♥

My Prayer:

Remember your word to your servant, in which you have made me hope. This is my comfort in my affliction, that your promise gives me life. The insolent utterly deride me, but I do not turn away from your law. (Psalms 118:49-51, ESV)

I will not give up. Because You trust me in this. You want me in this. Paul found joy in suffering, I should have too. Because we both have You. In this moment where I gave up myself planning for my future, I can only say Your Name and nothing more. Lord, your grace is sufficient in my weakness.

Wear your confidence!

WEAR YOUR CONFIDENCE! (AMA Mr. & Ms. Freshmen 2014)

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Therefore do not throw away your confidence, which has a great reward. For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised. (Hebrews 10:35-36 ESV)

Never in my dreams would I have thought about joining a pageant or any contest related to beauty or what. No wait, scratch that off. Never in my dreams would I even imagine myself ramping at the stage in front of many people. like woah. I was not like the other young pretty girls stands in their won sash and tiara in their room. And yeah, I was blessed to walk across the stage wearing this CONFIDENCE that came from God.

Speaking of CONFIDENCE. That was the question on Q & A Portion. (An unexpected Q&A Portion)

How will you compare your confidence compare to other contestants?

Hahaha. Sorry I don’t even remember the answer that I said. I just said whats in my heart and mind. lol, I don’t even know what I’m saying in front of many people. <like woah. do I look embarrassing?> But I remember a lil’bit of it. I said – I can say that I have more confidence than the other contestants because I already ask God for a Confidence & for wisdom. I already catch the confidence to face in front of all of you. And blah blah blah.

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The first thing that comes in my mind is I think God has a purpose why He let me to join with this. At the very first place, I don’t really want to join at Mr. & Ms. Freshmen 2014. But I have no choice; my classmates already listed down my name. And I was like Me? Me? Me? Ayaw ayaw ayaw! I was so self-pity that time, I was thinkin’ that I’m not beautiful. I’m chubby. I don’t want to wear dresses. I don’t want make-ups. I can’t walk like a real model. I’m not good in proper posture. I don’t want those things. Because I know I’m not really called for that. Ever since, I don’t join any competition like that. But when Sir Sibayan already push me to join in. I was OK. Let’s try! I know God will never let me down. He will never put me in this competition just to have fun like wala lang. I know He has a purpose.

And definitely yes, I realize that because of that it allows me to boost up my self-confidence. Honestly, sometimes I don’t have a confidence. It helps me a lot all within a competitive atmosphere. That was the struggle that I’ve been experiencing right now, and that’s why God really use that Mr. & Ms. Freshmen 2014 to make me realize that Confidence is very important. I realize it when I’m about to answer at Q & A portion. I was able to handle the blow on my confidence and self-esteem. My mind said “I’m the daughter of God, then I’m beautiful and I’m intelligent” Kaya ko to! That’s why I hit that Q&A portion with full of confidence. Oha oha oha!

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Participating in this and having a strong self-image can often go hand in hand. It’s a wonderful experience. I think the very best part about my Mr. & Ms. Freshmen experience so far is that it has given me a chance to be heard on something that is very important to me. And that is my GOD. (When I’m about to answer at Q&A portion) I was able to tell everyone that my God is the one who gives me confidence! “SI Lord lang po yung tangi kong maipagmamalaki sa inyo”

Everything you do, DO IT ALL FOR THE GLORY OF GOD! I believe that everything happens a while ago is because of His mercy and goodness in my life. For all the skills, talents, wisdoms, strengths, knowledge and yea confidence is come from our King of all kings. Praise God for that!

So we can confidently say, “The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?” (Hebrews 13:ESV)

The right winner wins at the right time”. That was the first time I joined a competition like that but I won. It’s really a wonderful feeling. I was not that expecting much. But early in the morning I do my devotion. And I was about to pray to God to help me. And when we already ramp I was praying na ‘Lord, wag po sana ko madapa’ hahahaha. Isn’t funny? And grabe, so init talaga. And the crowd was about to shout-out their bets. After doing that ramp and Q&A portion. It’s time for awarding. While calling the other winners. I was like ohw, mukhang waley ako ah. Hehehe, After announcing the 2nd runner up and 1st runner up, last na, champion. Mr. Freshmen 2014 – #9 oh oh oh oh. Si Jef yun ah. Last na talaga. I was about to pray; Lord, Lord, Lord, favor favor favor. Tuuugdugtuuugduuuug. Ms. Freshmen 2014 – #9 Woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Like woaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! Me? Me? Seriously? Until I got on stage I was still shocked. Woooooooooah grabe! The crowd was shouting phelpsi, baby phelps. Wawahhh! Hahahaha. And while walking upstairs, I was shouting THANK YOU LORD! And after getting my sash and prize, I was shouting GLORY TO GOD. Expect the unexpected. Grabe! How I could I imagine that? I’m such a blessed girl here :”>

God was the one who brought me in this kind of competition to honor Him and to glorify Him in any way that He wanted and for that I want to give a Big Big Thank you to God. All praises, glory, honor and adoration to Him!! Para kay Lord to!!

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This pageant really got the gears in my mind turning and I began to think, “What really defines beauty?” Is it clothes from overrated retailers like Abercrombie & Fitch, Hollister, Candies, Folded and Hung or Forever 21? Is it faces trapped in a mask of unnatural make-up? Is it obtaining a body that resembles a beanpole?

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For me, No. It’s not. What honestly defines beauty is one’s personality. One’s attitude. One’s true self. One’s heart. PUSO BAGO MUKHA! Hehehe. Amazing pageant contestants are the one who put a smile on face, let out a laugh, and have a little fun. Because that is, and always will be, the definition true beauty. Speaking of putting a smile on your face hahaha, a while ago, I told jef “Sakit na ng panga ko tagal ngumiti” Hahaha. Just wear your big big smile girls. Wear a smile on your lips as often as you can, learn to smile, smile when you say hello to people, learn to find something to smile about, when you become conscious of this, it will be a surprise to you to find that there are more things to smile about than to frown about. A smile brightens up your day and makes someone else feel much better, you can never go wrong with a smile. For a true beauty queen, it’s not about the title, or the crown or attention; it’s about the experience. It’s about feeling beautiful and knowing even when you don’t win, you have never felt more beautiful than you did that night. It’s about making new friends, it’s about learning style, grace, poise and how to speak in front of people. In the end if nothing else, you take away from the experience a greater sense of self-worth and accomplishment. That is a pretty great prize.

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10422561_791071087591233_7932283463569086583_nNaturally I would have been beyond nervous, but much to my surprise.  And also very freeing to show them who am I. I was happy to present me — just the way I am, and just the way God made me. I am glad to have taken the experience. 

So much for now. Thank you, God. Thank you for the Grace. Thank you for those people who help me to make over <esp. Liriel Alferez> and for those who cheer me! Thanks CA! Thanks Vikings!

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You are altogether beautiful, my love; there is no flaw in you. (Song of Solomon 4:7 ESV)

Tiaras! Walk in with confidence!

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One step, forward. (Considering I don’t fail. But I won’t stop. I will dream high.)

Heading off to college is both an exciting and challenging experience. First, exciting because you will have new school to go, new classmates to meet and new environment. Second, challenging because in College you will make many decisions that can bring you down or bring you up to success. There’s a lot of trial and error to experience. and definitely, a lot of temptation also. But of course, I know my identity in Christ. Why should I be afraid of? It’s heartbreaking to say farewell to high school life but I know as I close this chapter of my life, I will open another one. When I graduated high school level, the first question poped in my mind was “What’s school will I enroll to? & What course is really for me? in other word, What is God’s plan for me?”

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11, NIV)

The pressure is setting in..

The University of the Philippines College Admission Test (UPCAT) is one of the most awaited exams a high school student would take. It brings about a certain anticipation coupled with anxiety. It is, after all, the first and usually the biggest entrance test graduating students take. All the other entrance exams to other universities come after it. When you say intelligent people, first university will come to your mind, is UP. Many students are dreaming for it. It’s because everyone knows that in our future when we’re applying for jobs, school will be one of the most basis for acceptance. And UP is the best school, as others say. All my life, I’ve dreamed of studying at the University of the Philippines. I’ve yearned to become a scholar ng bayan for about a years now. I was so positive that I’ll get to study there one day; hence, my parents didn’t allow me to take entrance exam at UP for several reason, then I have no choice but to obey them, accept the fact that I’m not for UP & just look for other university out there. I tried to convinced them but eventually, it turned out to be a hopeless case, I didn’t even hear ‘Yes, You can take UPCAT’

So I look for other University. I planned to be an Engineer. Field of Electronics and Communication. I don’t know why I really like this course, I’m really determined to be an engineer in the future. I’m really confused with this. Since I was kinder, Since I steped in school, I dreamed to be TV Host/Radio Host/News Caster/News Reporter/VJ/ anything that are related to Mass Communication Major in Broadcasting. That’s my passion &- at the same time, I know that I’m good in talking and talking and talking, that’s why. hehehe, If you know me then you don’t need to ask me anymore why. Fourth year high school, everything has changed. I don’t know why. God really put me on the course were I’m not really good at; I’m not passionate, I have no interest, in other word, I don’t like’em. Related in Math. Like wuuuut? Why engineer? So, I have no choice, I need to become a Math lover. Math wizard? lol, Fourth year, I tried to listen to our teacher, I do also my assignments, I do recite, I do my seatworks. I’m trying to understand those <errrrrr>. I can’t explain. I don’t like trigonometry, ever! I was just thinking that time; ” Pag ba nag-trabaho na ako susukatin ko pa ba yung angle angle ng bawat gagawin ko ” Math really driving me crazy. I totally hate math when I started to saw letters? x+y. I dunno know, I love math when I was elementary, I really like to join math quiz bee’s, anything related to math but 1st year to 4th year High school, I have no interest to listen to our math teacher anymore. I am too shy to say this but honestly, I don’t understand anything about Algebra, Geometry and Trigonometry that were discussed by our teachers. hehehe, Then, Ok Laugh. I know in myself that I tried hard.

I prefer BS Electronics Communication Engineering at Technological University of the Philippines-Taguig. that was January 15, 2014 (first batch) when I take an entrance exam So here it is, I was being positive to pass the exam. I claimed, I declared, and I prayed harder. If this Is really God’s will for me then I will be part of this institution but unfortunately, I didn’t pass 😦 I failed. When, TUP already sent a letter in our house, I’m still sleeping that time and I heard my parents was talking about that I didn’t pass the exam, they wake me up and told me I didn’t make it. But I thought everything was a Joke. They’re just kiddin’ me, I know that. So, before I woke up, I pray first. I was declaring that I pass TUP-exam but suddenly, Sheim Jarra Blanco Palmes, You FAILED! (Take note: It’s capital F-A-I-L-E-D!) It hurts. that was the feeling when I read the TUP- letter. Ouch! Well, I didn’t have to be shocked. I didn’t answer all the parts of exam, I leave 30 items on Test G, and aside from that I didn’t ate my breakfast before I took the exam so my brain is hanging upside down while taking exam, Like what is this? ‘Sequence, napakabagal mag-isip. tsk’ . As if my expectations haven’t been deflated enough, I failed miserably in math for sure, as always. My math ability disappoints me. then, I know I’m just an average student since I was born to study; surely, the public school produces great, smart and intelligent student. who am I compared to those students, while me studied in private school ever since. Just like what other says, There are more intelligent students in public schools while me grew up in private school, I have nothing to blow. I really felt down. But I have to accept it. On that day, I easily get up, and look for other university again. As I said to myself, ‘I have to rise up and not to stick with this thing. I don’t have to be affected all over. Why should I? eh, I am being so loved by my great Daddy God, I was able to find strength to at least stop disappointing myself after those bad result. I don’t have to be sad all day, all night, because I know I am destined for bigger dreams and bigger goals in life, all I have to do is to embrace it and let it happen! My future is secured in His hands. I just have to trust Him.

My classmates told me that there are free cheng eng teng scholarship exams on SPCBA so, I grab it. 

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I’ve got 50% discount. I passed. I know God won’t let me down.

Of course, I have to look for other school again. SPCBA is just my option.

The day I take PUPCET.

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I take PUPCET at Sta.Rosa branch even though there is a San Pedro branch here. I prefer Sta. Rosa the reason is there is no Electronics Communication Engineering at San Pedro so I decided to go for Sta. Rosa. Then for a few weeks I settled my requirements for PUPCET. My mama paid 525pesos on land bank, and I take a 2×2 picture, before the day of my Entrance Exam. I was able to fix that all. When it’s all done. I was so very excited, I told myself that this time I need to pass this. I am very determined & I am really optimistic that time. I was full of positive thoughts on my mind I know that I can do this and I am highly favor by my Almighty God in Heaven but deep inside of course, I can’t prevent, I am a lil’bit frightened. I was just wondering If I didn’t pass this then, I know my parents will be disappointed to me. They spend money for me, for my entrance exams, then I just failed it all. First TUP then now PUP even though I pass SPCBA. It’s just an option in case I didn’t pass all the entrance exams I took. Aside from that It’s just my classmates who persuades me to take cheng eng teng scholarship exam. (wala namang mawawala) Let’s try SPCBA, It’s free and we can get a scholarship so I was just like ‘ Tara! Tara! Ok. Back to PUPCET hehe The day came. March 30 (2nd Shift) I was claiming that time to pass the exam. After 2 hours travellin’ I was at Mcdonald near Puregold Tagapo. I’m too early to go at PUP Sta. Rosa yet, I have to wait 3 hours. My mama told me that I have to eat breakfast first to prevent my brain hanging upside down (lol) so, I can answer my exam well. (I don’t want my TUP-experience to happen again, no breakfast then, this time I have to eat a lot) After 2 and a half hours, well, here I come PUP! There was a fresh air there but when I already come inside like woooooah ‘Sobrang init, anggulo ng linya, ang daming tao at damang-dama ko na ang feeling sa public’ Sorry po for being maarte hehehe, that’s my first time to encounter like that. Pero inside my heart, I want this one. I want this campus. Campus where I am going to be developed & campus where I am going to conquer for Jesus! It’s challenging & I’m really ready to get out of my boat, to stand out my comfort zone. & I’m ready to face those struggles that I will encounter everyday of my college life, for sure watatatatata. I was so exhausted even I’m not still in the room. ‘Am I having an audition for Pinoy Big Brother?’. I’m ready to take the exam. There are two proctors there the other one was really like a monster; Very strict. I was so scared to be embarassed that time so, behave sheimy. Don’t talk too much. & do the best you can aja! While taking the exam, the girl that sent from above is about to checked our requirements at some later time, again I failed. ‘Punit ang paper ko I thought I have to cut it because there’s a dotted lines there but that’s just an “I thought” huhuhu  Thank God, she just whisper to me that ‘next time’..  *sigh* And yes! she didn’t announced it in the whole class. I’m safe. Next time, double read the instructions, sheimy! “Ako lang yung nakahating papel” ='( I realized that I really don’t check the instruction clearly or maybe listened. My mama already told me not to cut it in half because there’s no instruction there to cut the e-permit but suddenly I didn’t followed and still I cut it in a half and followed the dotted lines. Always failed (⌣̩̩́_⌣̩̩̀)   then after taking the exam my name is special mention, like woooah this is so embarassing! Palmes, you have to complete the right requirements on or before April 02. My 2×2 picture size is just 1.5×1.5 picture size. So then, my mama spend money again. That time we went in rush to Sta.Rosa Bayan to re-scan it in 2×2 picture size and back to PUP again. We have to fall in line again & again. Super haba! We have waited for one and a half hours. After a long journey. I failed. Sad to say, I didn’t pass the PUPCET. April 29, I’m ready to check the result on PUP.edu website, (even though I am already enrolled in AMA Computer College Biñan) Yesterday, I silently prayed and hoped that I got to see my name as one of the passers. but yeah, I didn’t see my name. My heart was crushed. Okay. It made me sad, but I think I really deserved it since I didn’t study.  My papa always reminds me every now and then to study harder. He told me that How can I pass those exams If I don’t have an interest to study and learn more. He bought me a lot of books, but I didn’t open those expensive books ever since. I thought I can pass it even if I didn’t review. I was so confident with my stock knowledge. but unfortunately, that’s not enough!

One thing a realized : FAITH WITHOUT ACTION IS DEATH

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Yes, I know this! that Faith without action is death. but sometimes, We forget what’s the real essence of this when we’re about to that situation. Do something and Let it happen! I have to accept because I know It’s really my fault, no other than. I didn’t study well. And I also have a doubt in myself to pass those entrance exams. I was so self-pity which is not good. But then again, I know that God has a better plan for me. I kind of got over it as the time passed by. The Lord has His ways. I know He knows what the best for me.

So, eventually, I was enrolled last week (April 22 ) to AMA Computer College taking BS Computer Science. I took the AMA-entrance exam and yeah, I passed. Still, I have a lil’bit bitterness with those entrance exams I failed. If I know that I will not pass it and still I  fall with this campus, I wish that I didn’t take those exams in other universities to not feel this disappointments. But then, when I read my bible, it uplift my soul and spirit. It reminds me that ” THERE’S ALWAYS BE A PURPOSE FOR EVERYTHING” 

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And another blessing, I got a political scholarship on Munsipyo from our Vice Mayor – Hon. Rafael P. Campos. 50% discount until I graduate to college but there’s also a maintaining grade. I thank God for this. He never failed to bless and to amaze me and I know he will never ever fail. This scholarship is such a big help for my family.

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Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the LORD holds them by the hand. (Psalms 37:24, NLT)

Anyway, here is the pencil I used for my TUP-entrance exam and PUPCET. After posting this picture on VSCO, I told this to my mama and papa: “Pakiramdam ko po talaga hindi ako matalino =(” WARNING: Don’t ever tell it to yourself – (Wag gayahin!) Hehehe. We are all intelligent because we are the children of God. Tuloy ang buhay! hehehe. I am really too shy to share this entrance exams experiences.  I don’t want this to share on facebook or to other social networks. After all this failures? Why do I have to?  Just to share my failures to other people and to underestimate me? but definitely, no.. that’s not the point. Lately, I was about to share this to my other friends. I realized that there’s nothing to be ashamed of. Because of this experience, I learned a lot. Getting stronger now and then, and being more determined to study. Mas lalong nangarap! Dream High. 

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Now I know what’s really my purpose. I know what’s really am I for. After praying it for almost 1 and a half year, Always telling Him, ‘Not my will but, Father, Let your will be done’ Finally, God already put me there& I know I was born for this: [since grade 2, I am very interested to this stuff without tutoring me, (Glory to God) though, it’s basic but I have a lil’bit knowledge. & I can’t imagine that on my very young age, I am really passionate to do this thing and at the same time, still learning. I didn’t expect to be on this course, Honestly, I don’t like to take Computer-related courses because my kuya is already an IT. And at the same time, Engineering to Computer Science? huh? It’s like Hardware to Software? Well, I am going to embrace this, because I know this is God’s will for me.) I AM BORN TO BE..

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Keep Dreaming! Keep Believing! Never Stop!

 

Get together & Devotion with Minions

Olaaaaaaa Minionssssss!

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This is the first time na nakapag’ devotion kami. & I am really happy, I am filled, I am béni. hehehe~ Gusto ko talagang makapagdevotion kami. Dahil sa tuwing nagkakasama kami puro bonding na lang and we forget what is really the purpose of the group & who is the center of friendship? & Finally, everything was clear.

Kaya lang naman talaga kami nagkaroon ng get together dahil paalis na ang sis kong si Angelika Gener, At sakanyang pag-aalis naging daan ito para magkaroon kami ng whole day ‘Get Together’ . Alam mo na! we are going to miss her. Lalo na ako, mamimiss ko talaga yan, ehh-kk, sis ko! & Of course, hindi naman hahayaan ng bawat isa na aalis na lang si Gelly ng di man lang namin siya nakasama ng todo-todo! Love namin yun eh!

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At siya na nga ang naging daan. Siya ang kanto, tulay, lambak, gusali, pader, silangan, kanluran, timog, hilaga, sela, tanglaw, kalye, kariton, biak-na-bato, eroplano, sako at bagoong! Ikaw na nga talaga sis! hehehe, Obviously, kita naman sa picture kung paano siya namomoblema sa mga Dala-dala niyang kariton papuntang Myanmar. Keyang-keya mo yan sis! siya na rin nag-plano ng mga gagawin, oras, at kung saan. Movie Marathon, Devotion, Encourage & Appreaciate each other.

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Ayan dumating na ang mga minions! yey! Wala pa si Jamie Liongson niyan. Late na siya nakadating pero hindi naman super late. Hindi niya lang naabutan yung cake tapos si Geraldine Garon naman hindi nakasama. Well, may kirot sa puso dahil wala siya ang ka’Greeny ko eh, pero wala kong magawa kasi mabigat si Din di ko siya kayang buhatin papuntang bahay. Duma-drama lang ako! 😦 (Move On)

Habang nag-aantay kay Jamie Liongson ginagalaw-galaw na lang namin yung laptop ni Gelly tapos ako nagsasarili rin sa laptop ni kuya hehe. Alam ko na start pa lang yung bonding namin pero Natutuwa na ko at Nasisiyahan. Ano ba! Ngayon lang ako nakasama sa kanila. Sa tuwing gagala sila at sa tuwing magbobonding sila eh wala ako. Talagang ako lang yung hindi nakakasama, Availability na rin sigu-roo! And that’s why.

Nanunuod na kaming Cartoons. And yes! Hindi naman ako mahilig sa Cartoons siguro nung bata pa nga ako mahilig ako sa Cartoons syemprenemensuuu! Gustong-gusto ko pa non makulay sa mga mata. gusto ko din yung mukhang imposible di ba ganon sa cartoon yung tipong Alien mga itsura hahaha hindi maintindihan and as I grow old, heto I want reality. Gusto ko tao talaga hahaha Sige na kahit hindi true story basta makikita kong mukhang branch of great apes yan haha. Basta I find it interesting. that’s what I really want. Hindi naman to about sa gusto kong klaseng movie. Wala lang talaga!

Hehehe, Andyan na si Jamie Liongson . (tentenenen!)

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Sorry na Jamie. Patawarin mo na ko! Ayan lang talaga picture mo sakin kanina eh. hehehe~ Nung dumating na nga siya, manunuod na kami. Yung totoong manunuod na. Sa totoo lang nakakabilib sina Ate Shane, Iris, at Gelly. Nakita ko na nag-iintayan talaga sa lahat ng oras ang minions. Gaya nga ng sabi ko kanina, Yes! kilala ko sila. I’m part of them. pero hindi ko pa sila ganoon kakilala at di ko pa rin sila ganoon nakakabonding gawa nga ng wala ako lagi sa gala nila (paulit-ulit) & I am now looking forward for more bondings, for more getting to know each other, for more getting closer to God with them, & for more battles kung saan sabay-sabay kaming mag-aangatan! . Kapag may nalalaglag, minions sagip ilog na! watatata!

We decided to do a first karaoke instead of watching a movie. Lam mo na mga frustrated singers kami. Ayun nakahanda na yung mga kakantahin. wala pang mic nakanta na aside from that ang lalakas na ng boses, haha oh di ba. Yan nasira tuloy yung mic. 😛 Epic!

Syempre dahil nasira balik sa unang plan A (Una na nga Plan A pa. Wenks?), movie marathon. heto na. Napadpad na kami sa Call Center Girl.

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Tawa dito! Tawa doon! Tawa diyan! Tawa tawa tawaaaaaa! hehehehe, Sige tawa lang. Kaya pag may nangamoy si Angelika Gener po talaga yon! Pero, honestly, gusto ko tong movie na to, hindi lang naman yung mga tawanan ang hahanapin mo sa movie na to pero yung lesson talaga. Nakita ko talaga kung gaanon ka’astig ang isang dakilang ina, na kahit ano isasaksripisyo para sa anak. may nakakaiyak– na part pa nga don. kaso di ako maiyak ang bigat kasi ni Jamie. kaa-ozor! hahaha, sorry na Angelika Gener nasabunot ‘ATA’ kita ng mga 100x hehehe! Pabaon ko lang naman sayo yon papuntang Myanamar. Doon kasi sa Myanmar wala kang gagawin doon kundi magbuhat ng kariton so kahit papano hindi mo makakalimutan yung Napaka-tamis kong sabunot :*

After 2hrs. mga ganun, tapos na kami manuod. Oras na para kumaen ng lunch. Yung mga kasama ko kasi hindi nagsabing sa bahay namin maglulunch. Mga gutomski to, panigurado na nga. ayun bumili sila ng Maling at Nagsaing na ko. tapos pinaulam ko na rin yung Kikiam para kay Angelika Gener . Sa mga oras na ito, si Shane Sena ang nagluto . At sa mga panahong ito na-appreaciate ko talaga si Ate Shane. Kahit na alam kong gutom na siya, siya pa yung tumulong sakin. Natuwa talaga ko sakanya. At kahit papano nakakwentuhan ko siya. Mas nakilala ko siya. at Mas nakita ko yung mga good side sakanya.

After maluto ng Maling at Kanin. Ngayon ko lang nalaman, fact about minions: Kahit mga babae sila mga halimaw kumaen. Minions nga! Hahahaha, Baka mag-taka na naman kayo bakit hindi ko alam na mamaw sila kumaen eh kasi nga (paulit-ulit) Hindi ako nakakasama sa bondings nila nung nag-Inasal pala sila eh siguro mga 100x extra rice hmm, hindi na ako magtaka kay Angelika Gener. Ayan na nakahanda na ang pagkaen. Let’s pray! Lead na ni Jamie Liongson late po kasi siya. Habang nakaen kwentuhan, tapos kwentuhan ulit.

Ng matapos na kami kumaen, Devotion time! Yey! Sabi ko punta kaming bundok at nung malapit na kami sa bundok wala saming may dalang bible. cellphone lang na may bible at yung may dala ng phone na may bible apps, siya ang magle’lead ng devotion. at si Angelika Gener na nga iyon. Pagtapos umakyat na kaming bundok, medyo adventure. Ang panget naman ng pwesto dun napaka-init kala mong nagsu’sun tanning kami. Edi hanap kami ng bagong place kung saan maganda mag’devotion but, at last, Sa bahay pa namin kami napad-pad. sa labas ng bahay. basta around Earth st. lang kinahantungan namin. Mukhang ayaw ata kami sa ibang planeta. Para sa Earth talaga kami, at hindi kami doon sa Planet na may Aliens. Kokey~

Let’s Pray, lead naman ni Shane Sena . at kagaya nga ng usapan kanina si Angelika Gener na nga ang magle’ lead ng devotion.

” So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you. ” (Deuteronomy 31:6, NLT)

Sa bible verse na yan kami nag-focus. Ang pinaka-pinararating ni Gelly diyan eh about sa mga Spiritual Battles ng bawat isa. and that verse is a reminders for us. “He will never leave us nor forsake us” Sabi nga niya, Hindi mo lang battle yan, battle din ng bawat isa. Lalaban ka sa battle mo at lalaban din kami para sa battle mo.

Minsan kasi sini-solo na lang ng bawat isa yung mga battles. How can we pray for each other? Kung simpleng pagsha-share na lang sa bawat isa hindi pa namin magawa. Sabi nga ni Shane Sena, hindi lang F-U-N kundi yung Q-U-A-L-I-T-Y din. & I totally agree! Pero minsan masyado namang nagrerely sa tao. nakakalimutan kung sino ba talaga ang dapat puntahan. Katuald nga rin ng sabi ni Angelika Gener, nagtataka siya kung bakit may mga times pa na pag nalalaglag na nga, matinding journey na pero hindi pa kay Lord, lumalapit. Enebeeee?

Remember, our battles are spiritual battles. When we choose GOD. & choose to be still and know that the Greater One lives on the inside of us, we are putting ourselves in a position of strength.

Sabi nga ni Shane Sena:

‘ It’s not our battle, but God’s ‘ (2 Chrinocles 20:1-29)

I believe, The battle we face belongs to the Lord.  Be still before Him so we can see His hand of victory in every area of your life. Iangat ang bawat isa. Sagip Ilog!

After devotion, may mga side comments. Sorry na, minions madaldal talaga ako. Alam kong sana’y na kayo. hehehe, pero magpapasensya at magpapasensya pa rin ako. Pagkapanganak pa lang ata sakin nagsasalita na ko ng nagsasalita. In born na ata ito.

Bawat isa nag-comment about battles, about sa friendship, about sa word ni Lord sa kanila, about sa dapat gawin, any opinions. yung kahit walang konek sinasabi ko. Ganun talaga! Random. hehehe~

After ng Devotion na yun. oras na para sa encouragements & appreciation ng bawat isa. Ang naisip ni Gelly, una sasabihin muna yung negative sayo kumbaga for improvement tapos sumunod positive naman sayo, yung maganda sayo, yung naaappreciate niya sayo.

And this what I’ve learnt:

NEGATIVE:

  • Bagsak daw ako sa pag rerespeto in a way na hindi ako nakakapag-Ate sa kanila. – Shane Sena
  • Hindi ko daw nakikita yung worth ng isang tao o yung value niya. – Jamie Liongson
  • Pag andyan na ako, ingay na naman daw. Sobrang ingay ko daw, nakakainis na minsan pero minsan lang naman daw. – Iris Dela Cruz
  • Hindi marunong makinig parang pasok sa kabilang tenga, labas sa kabilang tenga. at Walang sariling desisyon – Angelika Gener

Yan yung mga qualities na dapat kong i’improve sa akin. Dati nung hindi pa ako nagsisimba sa Faithful Jesus Church. Ayokong naririnig ang mga open forums na negative sakin, siguro dahil ugali ko before ang ayaw magpatalo. Pero kanina, biglang nag’chining sa isip ko na, wow, ngayon mas gusto ko na pala tong part na to. yung marinig ko yung mga bad sides ko yung mga negative sakin at yung mga dapat baguhan. Ng sa ganoon, malaman ko kung anu yung mga dapat baguhin sakin. & I believe kapag mas gusto mo yung part na yun, ibig sabihin ” Hinahayaan mo, na ang Panginoon na ang magbago sayo paunti-unti ” Mas lalo ka rin nagiging mature at mas nagiging malawak ang pag-iisip mo. Nakikita ko kung paano mag-work si Lord sa buhay ko.

Walang taong di kayang baguhin ni Lord, kahit ano ka pa! Kahit anong klaseng tao ka pa! Kahit Alien ka pa!

Akala ko nung una ako magsasabi ng sarili kong negative yun pala hindi, yung bawat isa pala magsasabi ng negative sayo. hehehe, nung sinabi ni Gelly na negative side sa sarili naisip ko na agad-agad yung sakin. as ing’ agad-agad wala ng eto ba. ayun ba. ayan ba. kundi eto nga. ayun nga. ayan nga. At Heto na nga, hahaha. Gusto kong matutunan ang pagiging maingat sa salita. I’m on process with that. Napakatulis ng ating mga dila. Sabi nga sa Proverbs, Our tongue is like a razor.. Over all ng sinabi nila ay equals ng sinasabi ko nga. Pakiramdam ko may mga lumalabas sa bibig ko na hindi kaaya-aya sa kanila. Maybe because sana’y ako sa ungodly friends ko dati, na Free akong asarin sila, at kung anu-anong pananalita na hindi karespect-respect ng isang tao kumbaga mga birong hindi na nakakatuwa, which is now I learned, pahalagahan yung value ng bawat isa even though where too close to each other dapat nandun parin yung respeto, o kahit mas matanda pa siya o mas bata, dapat andun pa din yung respeto. Everyone of us deserve to be respect, it’s our rights as a human being. yung maayos na pananalita at yung pakikinig sa kanila hindi yung may naisip lang akong idea, opinion or thoughts ika-iingay ko agad. Ganun na rin siguro yung pag-tawag ko ng Ate sa kanila. Ako nga yung pinaka-bata sa kanila. I need them to respect for who they are. Siguro nasana’y lang talaga akong di mag-ate sa mga taong hindi naman ganoon kalakihan ang agwat sa akin. Maiintindahan ko pa kung tatlo o apat ang agwat natin kaso isa hanggang dalawa lang naman po, marunong naman po ako mag-Ate/Kuya hindi nga lang sa mga dalawa hanggang tatlong agwat sa akin, I hope you understand, Shane Sena. Sorry din if you feel like I didn’t respect you well, but honestly, I respect you! aside from that na-aamaze pa nga ko sayo, isa ka po sa mga masisipag na Campus Leader eh. kaya you deserve more respect from us. I really thank God for this realization & I thank my friends who use to told me this kinda things, because I believe mas lalo akong magiging better person kapag kino’correct ako ng mga godly friends. Ola! Mahal ko kayo!

Nahirapan na rin ako mag-isip ng mga negative sides sa kanila. Sa totoo lang, wala akong maisip na negative sa kanila. Ang nakikita ko lang sa kanila eh yung mga postive traits nila alilili. Hala malapit na ako. at eto na nga ako na yung sunod. Wala parin akong maisip. Kung ano na nga lang. & finally, natapos na hehehe, medyo dumidilim na ah. Sorry na, ang hirap mag-isip ng negative medyo medyo paligoy-ligoy pa. hehe ye’guys are the best! :*

POSTIVE:

  • Hard-working at Responsible sa lahat ng bagay, Obedient sa Parents, Masipag, at Laging masaya. – Shane Sena
  • Naaalala ko nung sinabi ni Kuya AJ Dela Cruz na dapat daw magpasalamat ako kay Sheim Palmes lagi daw kasi siyang nandyan para sa akin. Ayun, She is always looking out for me – Iris Dela Cruz
  • Palaging masaya, yung tipong pag wala siya malungkot walang ingay, saka manonotice mo talaga pag wala siya. Basta masayahin – Angelika Gener
  • Responsible, Brave at nakaka-inspired talaga – Jamie Liongson

Well, I thank God for those positive comments. Minsan nakakalift-up talaga ng soul makatanggap ka ng mga positive comments sa mga kaibigan mo. Nakakatuwa at the same time nakakatats! At sobrang nakaka-appreciate ang ganito. Maraming Salamat sa Panginoon!

Such a Motivation and an Inspiration. So frankly, in light all this, despite saying I’m an improving friend at the beginning of this post, I’m actually a pretty terrible friend. I am sensitive and get upset and defensive when people call me out. I am terrible about speaking truth to others and opt instead for the easier route of agreement that will seemingly benefit me more.sometimes,  I am selfish with my affections, do not openly give love and not accepting those corrections.

It is good that I realize those negative comments, and good that I can see where I need to improve and what I need to be more conscious of. Thanks Minions!

But in the end, it is really only the grace of God that enables me to be a friend. When I am secure in God and His friendship with me, I can begin being a friend to others using Christ as my source and example.

Jesus gives life and hope to me and my friendships (minions). He lovingly points out where I fall short, affirms me of His love and acceptance, then empowers me to be a better friend. He is my biggest advocate, His Spirit constantly interceding on my behalf. He covers me with the ultimate act of covering: the covering of sin.

Hindi niya ko iniwan! despite of those socio phobia I experienced before, I was able to overcome those struggles through God’s Grace for me.  He is the ultimate friend. I can only hope to be more like Him in this lifetime that I might shine greater light into this world.

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

– John 15:13

Dito na nga nagtatapos ang lahat. Kahit na minsan nagkakaroon kami ng mga di pagkakaayusan, pagiging hindi communicative gawa na rin ng mga pagiintindi namin sa mga sariling buhay, eh ang importante di namin nakakalimutan ipagdasal ang bawat isa sa tingin ko yun na lamang ang aming pinanghahawakan at sandata tungo sa aming destinasyon.

Nawa’ itong friendship na to ay mas lalo pang tumatag at si Jesus lamang ang maging sentro ng friendship na ito.

True friendship is not being permissive with friends. (As an aside, though we are obligated to spur one another toward holiness, I think a true friend will also seek to address such wrongdoing in a gracious and loving manner.)

In addition to spurring one another on through such correction, a true friend is also someone who you know will always be on your side, someone who will always desire good for you and communicates that openly through acts of love. The love languages come to mind: touch, time, words of affirmation, gifts, acts of service.

Part of being on your side also includes advocacy. A true friend is an advocate for the other party before God and before others.

True friends pray for one another and implore God on the other’s behalf. They pray before they correct. They are prayerful about their words and how they speak with you (do we not all remember the silly, but oh so wise sounding friends of Job?).

True friends also advocate for you before others. True friends do not gossip. They are quick to cover. They do not tear you down and expose you in your absence.

I thank God dahil muli ng naging bukas ang aking mga puso sa mga panibagong Kaibigan. Limot na ang dating hindi magandang pangyayari. kayo nga minions ang mga TUNAY NA KAIBIGAN (Godly Friends) Lalaban tayo sa digmaan ng buhay! Victory!

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“In friendship, we think we have chosen our peers. In reality, a few years’ difference in the dates of our births, a few more miles between certain houses, the choice of one university instead of another… the accident of a topic being raised or not raised at a first meeting—any of these chances might have kept us apart. But, for a Christian, there are, strictly speaking, no chances. A secret Master of the Ceremonies has been at work. Christ, who said to the disciples, ‘Ye have not chosen me, but I have chosen you,’ can truly say to every group of Christian friends, ‘Ye have not chosen one another, but I have chosen you for one another.’ The friendship is not a reward for our discriminating and good taste in finding one another out. It is the instrument by which God reveals to each of us the beauties of others.”
— C.S. Lewis

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